Yeah my purpose was tied into my creative goals and now i have no idea if i have a path or the drive to acheive any of them.

Im getting older every day and i still have no idea what im doing and its distressing

and I hate these long sunny summer days. They're torture when you're not having a good time

I really miss her man. I hate that I walked away cause I didn't feel good enough for her but I had to do it to save her from my f***ed up self. S*** is mad painful

Edit: I've been pushing people away my whole life cause I don't feel adequate. They probably think I don't value them when really i don't think I'm worth their time. F***.

Ngl man i really never suffered from mental health but recently things have been getting to me. 25 and feel like everyone in my life is passing me while i stay stagnant. Just had a family friend come over to give their daughter (whos the same age as me) wedding invitation for next year and im like damn i cant even find a serious relationship

Things happen at different times for everyone bro. You dont gotta feel the pressure. Your time will come

Thanks for the words bro. Sometimes its hard to find people to talk to even small posts like this help me

I’m only 21 and one of the girls I use to see are already engaged, it’s stupid to compare yourself to other people

25 is still mad young, you still got time

Whole lotta real on this page

Thank you for the encouragement fam

like 8 months into my meds and it’s starting to dawn on me like

yoooo these don’t really make me feel better lol

I can relate to the whole "pushing people away because in your mind, you're saving them from you "

losing hope

i guess i regressed back to the low point

Back to not being able to sleep again. 3:10am now and I'll be up by 6:30 fml

agoraphobia gang in shambles

I don’t think I can do this anymore. I’ve never felt thisnt type of pain and I can’t stop crying I can’t breathe

keep moving forward

what happened ?

Nothing specifically, everything just hit me like a ton of bricks. Ive had no real human relationship in my life, nobody f***inf cares. I’m just so lonely it’s been pent up so long I don’t allow myself to feel this stuff and I just f***ing blew. I was crying so hard I was laughing like a maniac and couldn’t breathe

people in this thread are here for you if no one else is.

and i think its healthy for you to let out + acknowledge those feelings, even if its emotionally painful at first. remember that there are always ways of meeting new ppl and forming new connections, whether its at school, work, the gym etc

stay strong fam

Deleted all social media - need to seperate myself from all the bullshit until I can get myself into a state that is healthy

9pm and only had breakfast today

Everything rly got to me today damn idk. Wish I could reach out to my ex but that’s done. Wish I had some benzos on me right bout now

Hopefully a sleep helps

They always say they understand

They never do.

I don't belong. I don't mind, I've grown to appreciate this, but it's important for me to remember.

Real

What do you do when nobody, not even yourself believes in you I don’t think I’m gonna be able to accomplish anything in life