Oct 31, 2019·1 reply
IAmMrShadyyo i did that exact same thing years ago man. idk if this advice will help but eventually jus fix your sleep schedule and jus *slightly, little by little add things to do to your day. like today i took a shower. next day i made myself some meals, a couple days later clean up the room, jus little by little add things so you function more. theres alot more to beating depression but when you are able to be functional while depressed it can slowly creep a lil out. i hope this helps and dont feel guilty for any of that because its what the disease does and at the end of the day we’re all victims of it struggling
Thanks man. Gotta keep trying.
PBS 🚶🏾♂️Oct 31, 2019my stupid ass got no business being up rn
- Oct 31, 2019
It’s either I can’t eat at all or I can’t stop eating
- Oct 31, 2019
i feel so unproductive, sad, and lonely. i have no friends in this world no cousins or family I can talk to and being where i want to be in life seems so damn far away
- Oct 31, 2019·2 replies
am i completely out of my mind.. should i conform and chase a normal life and like normal things people my age like
Oct 31, 2019·1 replyniggas is big depressed outchea man we stuck joggin in place 😤😤😤😤
- Oct 31, 2019·1 replyHuman Hunnid Emoji
niggas is big depressed outchea man we stuck joggin in place 😤😤😤😤
we spinning in circles :[
- Oct 31, 2019·2 replies
i cant do anything right!!!!
- Oct 31, 2019·editedPainPapi
we spinning in circles :[
the material goods put the bandaid over the gunshot wound tho
Oct 31, 2019PainPapii cant do anything right!!!!
Oct 31, 2019·1 replyI was gonna do molly tonight but I felt like I was having some type of mental episode last night, no joke
I was really tired and trying to sleep but my mind was just racing, couldnt chill and reality felt slippery, I was worried that I might have broke something in my head.
All I had done last night was smoke a little bit of weed.
I was worried
Oct 31, 2019minjiam i completely out of my mind.. should i conform and chase a normal life and like normal things people my age like
Nigga NO. Don’t ever be content or fall fo being average based off fear and doubt. You too special young king. Act like it brother
Oct 31, 2019just taking it day by day
plants 🌻Oct 31, 2019
free gucci maneneed
i feel like my therapist ain't help but admittedly it might be due to me not telling him enough
yea the only things i don't tell my therapist is stuff like how my wife and i have casually talked about a murder sui if things get really bad due to the global pollution epidemic and we have to fight mfers for water lmao
or how my idea of activism is burning down utility companies, committing vigilant justice against cops, and blackmailing politicians lmfaoooo
i keep that s*** away from a man who can have me involuntarily entered into a asylum lmfao
Oct 31, 2019·1 replyPADYBUI was gonna do molly tonight but I felt like I was having some type of mental episode last night, no joke
I was really tired and trying to sleep but my mind was just racing, couldnt chill and reality felt slippery, I was worried that I might have broke something in my head.
All I had done last night was smoke a little bit of weed.
I was worried
panic, anxiety, derealisation ?
had this 2 days ago, sounds very similar to what you're describing
maybe weed started triggering these feelings in you?i aint smoke for a minute because of this
- Oct 31, 2019·edited·1 replygabo
panic, anxiety, derealisation ?
had this 2 days ago, sounds very similar to what you're describing
maybe weed started triggering these feelings in you?i aint smoke for a minute because of this
Derealization sounds like it. I kept feeling like my mind would race for like 4 seconds and for the last two seconds id have just these extremely irrational fears like my bones growing or mind blowing or all of a sudden loosing my mind. It must have been triggered by a lack of sleep and plus i had just horsed down a small joint. It's very very scary, I dont think ill smoke again tbh.
- Oct 31, 2019·1 replyPADYBU
Derealization sounds like it. I kept feeling like my mind would race for like 4 seconds and for the last two seconds id have just these extremely irrational fears like my bones growing or mind blowing or all of a sudden loosing my mind. It must have been triggered by a lack of sleep and plus i had just horsed down a small joint. It's very very scary, I dont think ill smoke again tbh.
it's all in the mind and in conditioning yourself to act and think rationally
ik that's the key, but in me telling you that it's from a perspective of not being able to handle it quite yet eithers*** genuinely feels like you don't exist and ur abt to die
- Oct 31, 2019GODFLOW
Thanks man. Gotta keep trying.
much love <3
- Oct 31, 2019·1 replygabo
it's all in the mind and in conditioning yourself to act and think rationally
ik that's the key, but in me telling you that it's from a perspective of not being able to handle it quite yet eithers*** genuinely feels like you don't exist and ur abt to die
Yeah its pretty terrifying.
Its only happened once before and that was when I took like I think maybe 3 and a half Es (rookie mistake of thinking if they made me feel so good now why dont I take another and put foot to pedal) over the space of like 4 or so hours idk, I also got a spliff in me and then s*** went south. My eyes were shaking, I got bruxism which fread me TF out, I thought my jaw was growing and chaning shape and I couldnt tell if it was true or not, I kept checking a mirror, alsooooo the worst part... my mouth kept closing itself like a vice, like an air tight thing, mustve been from the bruxism. If my tongue was left between my teeth id swear id kept biting down til i bit it off. Id smack out of it but it kept happening. I resorted to keeping my mouth open and breathing in and out which helped ease me. Breathing in and out and
It was so frigthening and I felt off for days after. I think this episode last night was like an aftershock from the last time I was stoned on E, although last night I wasn't on E and hadnt done it in like months.
- Oct 31, 2019·1 reply
sleep schedule absolutely f***ed
stayin up and overthinking everything killing me slowly
- Oct 31, 2019·1 replyPADYBU
Yeah its pretty terrifying.
Its only happened once before and that was when I took like I think maybe 3 and a half Es (rookie mistake of thinking if they made me feel so good now why dont I take another and put foot to pedal) over the space of like 4 or so hours idk, I also got a spliff in me and then s*** went south. My eyes were shaking, I got bruxism which fread me TF out, I thought my jaw was growing and chaning shape and I couldnt tell if it was true or not, I kept checking a mirror, alsooooo the worst part... my mouth kept closing itself like a vice, like an air tight thing, mustve been from the bruxism. If my tongue was left between my teeth id swear id kept biting down til i bit it off. Id smack out of it but it kept happening. I resorted to keeping my mouth open and breathing in and out which helped ease me. Breathing in and out and
It was so frigthening and I felt off for days after. I think this episode last night was like an aftershock from the last time I was stoned on E, although last night I wasn't on E and hadnt done it in like months.
bro exact same here
last time this happened was on E and i felt like my teeth were made out of gum and i kept grinding em togetherwhat helped was to stay hydrated, keep breathing, keep still and keep ur eyes on the clock - that way u know how fast ur actually breathing and moving in comparison
u still feel off today? im still questioning reality after this bro
- Oct 31, 2019dxi
sleep schedule absolutely f***ed
stayin up and overthinking everything killing me slowly
respect ur alarms and don't take any naps until its time to go to bed
it won't solve everything but it'll make it feel like you have more time each day to do what u need to do 
Oct 31, 2019minjiam i completely out of my mind.. should i conform and chase a normal life and like normal things people my age like
in the same dilemma