You owe it to yourself to try. <3

Good tips!

Well ever since I did mescaline a few years ago I feel like I percieve reality a lil different but not in a bad and scary way, mescaline just showed me that you can see so many trippy and unreal things and not be able to tell that they are real or not but at the same time you know damn well its all good and will pass. It made me realize just how much our own perceptions of reality are concocted in our brains. Like, theres the real reality, and then there the "reality" we create.

Overdoing molly seemed to work in a similar way but instead its terrifying you and making you believe the things your body is doing will soon be the end of you. But f*** all that.. f*** all that!

I was listening to this comedian Marc Maron on Norm McDonalds podcast and he was talking about when he once used to be getting some psychotic episodes, brought on by d***e use, he would be seeing signs where there arnt any and that sort of stuff, thing everything was all for a reason and that the was perceptive enough to pick up these signs. He's fine now though, one day a voice in his head just told him something like "alright, you've gone far enough" and that was that.

I dont have a therapist, I have a gf whos smart af though and thats close enough for me

@gabo I wonder if some intellectual type dude like terrence mckenna or whoever spoke on this while derealization rut

ur right, if a part of ourselves can deduce that it's just signs that don't add up, it's empowering over the trains of thought

for me it's being like damn dude it's been an hour am i really gonna sit through another 3 of these? and i pull myself out

im reading a university paper on it now - "people with DPD are aware that their feelings are a subjective phenomenon, not an objective reality"

self detachment is a temporary chore as long as ur aware that ur not an object or on autopilot

ngl mescaline sounds cool as f*** but after all this im iffy about tripping on anything lmfao

I think thats a good decision, better safe than sorry

when I’m zoned

I forget about it all

peeling yourself off of the mattress every morning<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<

been slicin up a lot this week and drinking too. doin another round tonight

I would do anything to never feel anxious like this again

Dealing with college, my mother who can’t even get up from the bed due to Lyme disease, my girlfriend ended up crashing my car but I bought a newer Jeep. Feeling lonely. It’s like I always want to be around other people even tho my girlfriend is next to me living with me. Moved to a new state, but it seems the down to earth people are always “busy” even tho I know they’re all hanging out. It’s like they don’t want a new friend around? I’m a little different from them. They’re a little nerdier and white. But idk. I just got good vibes finally after moving but they only hit us up if they need something. It’s never just “come over to hangout”.. I could write a story.

I dont wanna be on meds for the rest of my life

I even quit weed ffs

the urge to have a drink is a whole different monster tho

I just wanna get sober but I dont wanna get bad again and have psychotic episode ...fml

Sometimes I wondered why I didn't commit suicide, cuz I still feel like s***.

We are all gonna make it

Sometimes i wish i was somebody else ... just to know how it feels 😔

Not gonna go into too much detail but I've been drinking very heavily for a few years now and it's been the best thing I've ever done for myself. There's so much we don't understand about biology u kinda gotta trust ur instincts some times

1. time heals all, you won't feel this way forever, i promise

2. try to take things one day at a time. makes it much easier

3. ive tried to take my own life too and there's a reason why im still here; there's a reason why you're still here too. let's figure it out together, bro. take care <3

haha people say this about me all the time. i wont divulge too many personal details but i've had a few amazing opportunities to do the things that i really love. this is exactly what some of my old friends think when they see me.

what they dont realize is that on a mental health level, ive been rock bottom the past few months and im just now coming up. its been complete and total anguish. im getting better but still, its been bad.

so take that as a lesson... the grass may always SEEM greener on the other side... that OTHER person may seem better/have it together but they're going through s*** too. we all are.

take care <3

you ever get the feeling everyone is out to get you and wants you to fail?