appreciate it bruh i’m feeling a bit better today

hope you doing good as well 🙏🏽

Last night My dad gave me directions, to the two closest bridges to us so that I could jump off and off myself , For serious and conviction in his voice. Over me not cleaning my room when he wanted me too

Extreme physical abuse from my Grandparents, towards my parents is probably one of the worst things in the world as far as cause-and-effect.(not normal “abuse”) i’m talking my father having his limbs broken multiple times. Among his siblings

No real point to that just some thing I thought of

All comes down to slavery too

pain

I feel it slipping

I just wish I wasn't alive

I have ruined so many relationships because of my low self esteem it's hard to imagine a way forward from here. I just don't feel worthy of love so i end up alienating and cutting off everybody around me. I don't do it to hurt them or cause I don't like them, it's cause i lack self love and feel that I'm a weird burden

How old are you? I would move out ASAP

Stuff goes wrong with women and my default reaction is to pullback further. Each time I’ve gotten a little excited about a connection and start to open up, I get shutdown/rejected.

I am beginning to doubt myself again, I’m trying not to but I think I did as well as I could conversation wise. I’m at a loss of what to do..

And I hate when it gets to this, I end up missing her the most. This isn’t fair man, idk how much more I have to overcome

Theres no way I can save you,cause I need to be saved too...

It gets better
I was in a similar spot around your age, I even had a strong panic attack caused by the thoughts of mortality and the inevitable passage of time
Life is good though, even the mundane has some seriously beautiful and meaningful moments that make it all worth it
Like seeing the first rays of sun as you're going to work after it's been raining and cloudy for the past 4 days, like it was here today
Hang in there brother

You're right

I really appreciate your reply, puts everything in perspective

23, I’m gone Friday flight booked

Where abouts are you moving?

Rhode Island, lived in Connecticut my whole life like an hr away

I forget what I post in here sometimes

rough start to this year

none of that s*** matters. i'm glad to be alive and in good health

Feeling just like you right now it’s rough

i’m washed at 22

No, you're not.

You have so much to give. I believe in you

It starts with you. Work on believing and applying self-love in your daily.

You are worthy of love and do much more

Keep going