Basically in the same spot now. And to me, that’s when it’s time to move on.

My heart keeps racing for no reason. Getting really sick of it and idk what to do

you talking like heart palpitations?

Tired

Dont know what the point of all of this is

maybe? it happens every other week or so when my anxiety goes up. I dont have bad blood pressure or anything like that

i’m fed up at this point, haven’t ate in 5 days, feeling constant nausea and dizzyness

i just want to sleep foreva

S*** is getting rough man

Need to journal at a greater length to figure this all out but by the end of the day I'm just mentally exhausted

I hope one day we reconnect.. Yaknow everything between us, the control always landed on your side. Like even now, you know how to reach me if you wanted. You can see I’m still moving, I mean you even see my work. But like, I have nothing to go on for you. I just have to hope that you didn’t give up on life and remove yourself completely.

That’s sad... Maybe that’s what happened, I want to think better but honestly idk. Suicide sucks, and there’s nothing I could ever say to change your thoughts in it. I just hope you haven’t.. I wish I could have fixed s***

Every woman I’ve been with has resulted in the same ending, I invest more and end up with just wounds.

Because I hate the idea of being alone, I still try like a person who simple just doesn’t know any better. :/

I’m in the same boat
Need constant affection or attention or I feel so f***ing empty

No motivation to even get out of bed but I have so much to do

Need to get the f*** off my phone this s*** makes me feel worse

The mental health fall out from this pandemic is gonna be astronomical. Holy s***,we were in a crisis before,just thinking about how this s*** is gonna have long lasting effects on people because of the isolation and mass loss is overwhelming

Yeah bro, please go get that looked at. I had heart palpitations and I the doctor gave me some medicine and told me to stop working so much.

Ngl I be typing like a diary sometimes when I feel overwhelmed

Keep trying brother! You gonna find true love in time ❤️

Yaknow not every relationship has been a complete .223 to the chest. While basically all of them have crushed me, atleast the 2nd most recent one (or most recent? idk) was nice.

That one was fine actually, and I was genuinely happy. We were same page the whole way, I didn’t feel like I wasn’t being matched emotions wise, I felt pretty secure in that. And even though it didn’t end up how I wanted it to obviously, it ended respectfully with no drama. She was a very intelligent, thoughtful and great person all around. Put me onto my most listened to artist too lol. It was just a lot of newness and COVID travel was a real issue.

Idk why I haven’t thought of this till now. It’s sad how the painful ones occupy my mind the most and I just forget about the time it was truly nice. That’s not fair tbh, that was a solid stretch of time where I really felt like everything in life was finally lined up

She treated me how I’d always wanted to be treated and I treated her the same way I think. It was a truly nice time, that was a good thing even if it didn’t make it. It was a much better relationship than anything else I’ve experienced tbh, even if it was brief

There is nothing I crave more in life than love. That's all I want. To be and feel loved.

ily bro please eat something. take care of yourself, u deserve a lot more than this

feel like im gonna cry a lot this week

Man I feel f***ing washed

I'm 21 and this lockdown and isolation has taken valuable time, I'm hearing my parents talking about how they had me at 30 cause any older would be too late. I feel like my time of carefree hapiness is long over and I totally understand responsibility is important and inescapable, I have it already.

Its just that I'll never be able to view the world with novelty again, i just sit there and get older and older and closer to death. In about 3 years society will start punishing me for it.

Sorry I'm dooming out but the passage of time f***ing sucks, especially when you cwnt do anything

Life was so much better back then

I think I need my ssris back