yeah idk she also said she thinks I get under the skin of people in a positive way and that I shouldn't come back before I can come in every week. but every week is tough with my work situation.

I try to be honest but its tough because they can't ever find out i'm still d***ging, the police and health care system thinks I've been sober for 3 years now. I only got 7 more years of d*** tests till im free.
and they can't know i'm suicidal because they will put me on some kind of watch and I can't have people that work with the government watch me im already paranoid on the reg I would go crazy.

Some Will Box You Just For a NUmber ..

I retired that Sunnnof a B**** He was Always Eat These Microwave Noodles too ..

Really not liking myself rn

There's so much I'm thankful for. Despite being stressed out by a homework assignment that's due today, it feels great to enjoy the simple things. I enjoy this cold, autumn weather and this hot beverage I'm drinking.

I don't know your situation, so I'm not going to sit here and say your mind's making a bigger deal of it than it really is. However, if you're like me and you overthink a whole lot, it helps to slow down and just be happy about the simple pleasures.

I failed

I will never be happy. I just have to accept it

Keep your head up man...we all gonna bounce back soon

other people's trash is busy ..

Man my anxiety is actuallt crazy, really my biggest problem rn I cant do anything cus of it. Always f***ing tired and just thinking thinking thinking my mind never gets a rest

Just riding the vibe recently, I know it’s not all gon be sunshine and dandylions but I’m cool with how stuff is going. Feels like I’m back clicking again.

I know I’ll have sucky days but it’s not the end of the world so im up! I’m always my own biggest critic, I need to become my own biggest fan now

Been up 21 hours and still can't ficking sleep, man I swear I'm helpess at this point. I'm just wasting space and resources at this point, I dont provide nothing to this earth and to mfs thst wanna say everyone got people who love them I know people love me but im incapable of loving them so what the f*** is the point of this s*** if I cant provide nothing for no one not even myself. I don't want to be this way, I wish I was that positive mf that can always hold zhit down and be there for people and help them build themselves. But I can't even take care of myself and I just dont wanna feel this s*** anymore. I have periods of very very short-lived hope but it always goes back down the s***ter and its torture at this point I swear my sanity is slipping and idk if ima be here much longer then a year or two cus at this rate im f***ed and am reaching the point of no return and thats not a life I can accept

I always f***ing fail with people I just don't see the point anymore, I dont. I'm so trapped

whats keeping you from loving people fam

I really don't know bro I'm just incapable of having that connection with people, even my own mother. I'm just so distant from everyone I can't open up or even know how to. Its s***ty cus I want to but ever since I was a kid its how s***s been and I can't break out of it. Its like my qhole life I've been building tbis person that I f***ing hate and I can't turn it around, like im posessed.

hmm, no bullshit have you ever tried to go to therapy or try psychedelics like shrooms?

and just speak what's on your mind, why do you feel you cant express yourself?

Too nervous to try therapy but I've done acid before but a low dose. All the s*** it made me think tho I usually do on a regular basis. I'm actually pretty spiritual believe it or not but I guess just a very lost soul

how old are you breh?? i cant really give you advice but just keep your head up brodie s*** changes and things get better if you actively work towards it with a positive attitude

f*** man

Lately I’ve been feeling really insecure about something. I don’t feel comfortable talking about it here but if anyone wants to PM and talk I’d appreciate it