oh my god i hate feeling like i can’t talk to anyone about how im feeling about things

one of the worst days of my life. i just wanna numb this feeling as quickly as possible

can’t blame anyone but myself. i keep digging myself a deeper hole

I understand where you are coming from and in a way how you feel. But isolating yourself is not the answer. You should be skeptical of your mind and your thoughts you lie to yourself constantly, I certainly am of mine. I have shown time and time again that I'm not capable of making say the right decisions or assumptions about myself I tell myself bad things about myself I don't think too highly of myself. To me it is very important to have friends I don't have many of them but I have two I can count on that I can share these thoughts with and there just like woah woah hold up man you're the s*** you're bugging don't let this b**** make you feel like that also my therapist helps but basically there the voice of reason. I can't listen to myself all day I'm a lying piece of s*** and I'm the one who got myself in this situation. It is not unfair to reach out to others it is human we all want to be understood and loved and there are others who feel just like or have went thru it and are more than willing to help. Find a support group man, people you can count on.

Any man if you ever wanna talk feel free to slide into my pm’s and we can talk about whatever man. I check my messages a few times a day so HMU if you got some stuff on your cheat you wanna try to get off

Anything you wanna talk about brother?

Everything okay man? Don’t be so hard on yourself bro we all have our bad days

Man to keep it real with you sometimes asking yourself those tough questions is the first step to real growth.

By I really respect you for seeing the bigger picture and understanding that you have some problems and it sucks, but some people’s situation are even more real and your thankful that your problems are at least manageable.

Really respect that bro

You're looking at it the wrong way. When you were in that relationship there was things about you that you allowed her to break your boundaries or violate (this happens when were in a fog were so in love with someone and we want to believe what they say). And I'm not saying she was justified but in reality you should have learned a lot from the relationship and in the future when you get into new relationships you will be able to spot all these red flags and avoid women like her p easily. I'm not saying you're not going to not get hurt loving but letting some bum b**** take that away from you is not the move.

Please

Mh thats true though the thought of liking somebody still scares me s***less

For the first time in 2 months I’m going to sleep at a reasonable time for me. I will wake up, get on with my day and continue adjusting to my new life.

My s*** collapsed a few days ago, and I kept it to myself. I didn’t bring anyone in on it from irl, it felt odd not to. But truthfully I had no one to talk to. That sucked so much, but life sucks. And that’s no reason to quit. I got back up and other doors open up from work I’d done. And that’s what this has been about.

I feel like mentally I’m in a really good spot right now. It’s been a good week everything considering. I f***ed something up and when s*** hit rock bottom I didn’t go back into hating myself. I just got back up. I’m happy with that outcome.

I’m going to get back on a normal HUMAN schedule lol and work towards this new opportunity I’m focused on. Bet on yourself guys cause you’re worth it 🙌

...

so empty

I mean it's a legit fear to have especially after going thru something traumatic. But you'd be doing yourself a disservice to just rule falling in love again out. You have to learn to trust yourself and your gut to avoid finding yourself in similar scenarios. You have to grow you were a sucker then, but you're not a sucker now or maybe you are but make it a goal to move past that. One of my big problems was codependency and you might want to look into that. I have a certain personality and honestly you sound like you have a similar one to me at least when it comes to love, people like me and you are food to certain personalities like say a narcissist or a borderline. But something like codependency I don't believe is a hard thing to fix it just requires awareness from me and after dealing with a bunch of crazy b****es my red flag radar is p f***ing good. Your boy has an incredibly low tolerance for bullshit.

wishing the best for u

Man i need a job but its like f***ing impossible for me to get one

Feeling good as hell today. But yeah I did d**** lmfao f*** it

I recently came to the realization that i've been chronically depressed for almost 15 years now.

I tried to go to theraphy several times, but it never works. Last time they said nothing was wrong with me and that theraphy is not for me.

I'm not sure things will ever change, I'm used to it by now,, I'm used to the phases, to push eveyone away, I'm used to tell family and friends that we'll hang soon and then go silent for months.

and ppl don't know im depressed, I hide it very well and make people feel like there is something wrong with them.

rant over

They all sound like s***ty therapist. Why would a therapist tell you there's nothing wrong with you? I mean she's probably right to an extent like there's nothing broken with you making you depressed however diagnosing you is not there job. Helping you thru your mental struggles listening and identifying issues you need to work on is more of there job imo. Therapy only works if you're honest tho if you're not willing to open up to them I can see why they would say something like that.

love you

you’re still in my dreams huh

WHAT i F***ING SAid !!! ..