I had no idea that it was Suicide Awareness Month until today...

I want to commit SUICIDE

He just like me

I’ve f***ed so much up so bad just gotta keep working I gues f***

I want college to be able to over so bad F***

idk if its my meds or not but I just had an extroverted experience in my class talking and initiating conversations with women

I feel like I threw away 6 months of progress on social skills in like 2 weeks lol

Probably just anxious toda tho

I think I’ve reached the point where when things happen my brain just coasts through it

It’s been one of the worst years of my life and there’s probably been a few moments where I felt very emotionally overwhelmed

this is real

I was waking up early most of the year and getting like an average of 18,000 to 21,000 steps in a day then I kind of just hit a wall of social exhaustion down to 1,000 to 5,000 steps a day. I just want to enjoy the end of this nice weather and soak in the sun but the year has been a lot of plot. I feel getting headphones fixed will help again. I need music to be social again somewhat. See sunrise with music or peace but I guess sometimes we should just walk with sounds of nature.

Tripping or consistent meditation helps me recenter. Going to try meditating or setting daily task. Sometimes it just feels purposeless with bills or love or friends stress whatever it may be. Its about finding purpose in nihilistic times

I haven't been able to release anything or even write for that matter since June. I honestly don't know what's wrong with me

Feeling extra sad this week and this song is hittin’ different

good stuff thinking of getting back on them

energeticsinstitute.com.au/characterology/unwanted-child-schizoid
what the f***

Love to y’all

I’m just tired of humanity and people being happy while I’m left abandoned by everyone

Never feel like I have enough time

And in scared one day all ill have IS time, but by then itll be too late

those with low libido from meds, How long did it take you get it back?

Not doing too hot, feel isolated and strange

Just tired
I think a nic relapse is due

I screamed at a kid to shut up through the door after I kept slamming doors and screaming in hallways im spiraling

Idgaf I hope the parents feel unsafe and move out
No more happy lives around me I want everyone around me to feel as miserable as I am

You tell me to f***ing calm down I will chew your f***ing nose off

you talked to any professionals about what’s going on? your posts the last two days have been pretty scary my bro. i have some similar behaviors when i’m spiraling and i wouldn’t want you to hurt yourself or anyone else.

you can also just talk w me if you ever need.