Dont let yourself fall. Do the best you can to try to distract yourself even if itd something small

Got fired the other day. It thankfully wasn’t a completely serious job holding me up but it’s definitely demoralized me. It just seems like most positions these days are temporary or ghost

@Its_LIIIIT

Why have I been wanting to see my therapist after the first sesh. Not even some sad boy s*** I just feel like I want to talk. I’ve never been in a space where I’m able to talk about myself and not have to fear judgement

Also I’m stuck between knowing I’ll eventually fawn over my therapist especially after being vulnerable plus she’s around my age but the other option is a male and I’ll be able to put that much other there

Hey thats a good thing, Chippo. Wanting to vent isnt bad. I'm proud of you

Tbh I would just wait and see what happens, because if you feel secure speaking to her, its pretty good and will make you open up more

Thank you:)
Things luckily got better.

Felt like the dark side finally quiet down, and now I can enjoy my vacation with my partner.

I hope you are doing well too:)

"anxiety is uncomfortable, but it cant hurt me"
i tell myself that when it spikes here and there

altho mine isnt very bad so u def have more experience with it.
ever tried introducing new methods like writing down ur thoughts?

they say once u see them stare back at you on paper it helps wash over u at how silly/harmless they are. theyre much more of a threat when still in your head

also if u dont mind me asking, why amino? why not anxiety medication?

my psychiatrist told me for my case all I needed was adhd (non stimulant) meds. my anxiety was a result of rampant adhd so its considered mild.

it gets really bad before a vacation believe it or not, something to do with my brain loving routine and not wanting to detach from it

imagine being excited for a vacation and also scared

Thank you for replying:)

I have tried almost every medicin there is.
I get bad side effects and I am of the belief that you should only take that kind of medicine one year or two max and then get if it, and most of the medicine also have that written on it.

I feel that getting on it will set me back in the long run.

Amino acid complete or single amino acids like L-tyrosine / L-Dopa, L-Thrypthphan gives some relief when my mind has taken a turn for the worse, but with allot less side effects and also without me feeling like I am on d****.

I can really relate to what you write about vacation, how mental issues gets worse leading up to it, because of stress and the unknown.
One of my parents are very mentally ill and get psychotic before vacations, so now they just don’t go on vacation anymore.
Something about it just sets of something for people who deal with mental issues

glad u found what works best for ya

damn yeah seems like "breaking routine" triggers are much more common than I thought

a virtual hug to all of yall

a handshake if you kinda homophobic

A virtual hug right back:)

type s***

some days i just feel like giving up entirely.

today more than most.
i don't know if i'm more than this. i like to believe i am but i have so much doubt.

i set myself up for disaster and can't handle the repercussions

way more than kinda

Round 2 on Tuesday, probably the first time im excited to have an emotional experience and not terrifies me

I’m ngl I think them nofap people might have been onto something

P****es do need a vacation from being worked so hard.

That and the mental stimulation aspect of it with dopamine and s***. I took a pretty long break because of traveling and felt this insane mental acuity for the first time in a while. Like my brain fog was completely gone. Then I let it fly yesterday and I feel all out of wack again.

Started going hard in the gym.

I will not be happy without this…

2nd session done and damn dude that went by fast

Not sure how I feel

will not kill myself but the feeling is here