I’m not going back to the f***ing psych ward

I stay catastrophising

back to where i started heh

🤨

Depressed

probs adhd meds

Its hard to manifest when my psyche is a mess

Losing this battle everyday
I don’t live life i just merely exist

Today feels strange

An u easy feeling is journeying my insides.

Drinking habit hard as fuuuuck to drop

Im f***ing tired of my dumbass social anxiety i hate it here its crazy how i know my perception of myself is way different than others and yet i also feel like they be lying i need to push myself to seek therapy dawg cant keep dealing with this its eating my braloserls!!!

this s*** "ruined" my youth

Being sick always takes a toll on my mental health man. Doing better this time compared to other times thanks to therapy, but it’s still a challenge

Does anyone have experience with Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation (TMS) Therapy? My psychiatrist has been suggesting it for a while now but it seems like the biggest pile of bullshit to me. And if it did have an effect on my brain my gut feeling is that it would be a negative impact (can you tell i have anxiety? Lol)

No but I’ve looked into it. There is evidence that it could be helpful, but I also get the feeling it’s not a drastic change.

I have done ketamine infusions prescribed by a doctor for depression and PTSD however

f*** youuuuuuuuu

I wish I could pick it all up and move to a different country

what were the ket infusions like? I think they recently started allowing nasal ketamine or something similar in australia. I know thats different from infusions tho

It was one of my first experience with those types of d****. It was very intense, as basically the K is administered intravenously, it puts you in a deep K hole where you’re free to explore your mind and listen to music / chill.

When I was really down bad, it helped me to kind of get off the ledge so to speak. I did 6 sessions over two weeks, and each one was different. Some were easy, and immediately helped me feel better and more confident after. Some of them were hard and I felt like crying and calling my friends during.

I prepared for each session by journaling before and after, and I had weekly therapy sessions aside from the K treatments where I could discuss how I felt with the therapist.

This was in 2021. There was an outcome tracker that the clinic sent out, and according to my emails I went from about 51% on the symptom score to 86% with only 2 weeks of treatments.

These days I keep a small amount of K in the house just in case the feelings of deep depression or ptsd symptoms return. It’s only ever for emergencies but it did help a couple times. I hope this helps man

Just one of those days where I have to lay in bed all day or I'll lose my mind.

nah bruh bed rotting not allowed

Feeling so lost