I don’t even know man

i ain't sleeped a peep but still got a decent job search in and volunteered for my local parkrun

music just numbs me

i feel like that
i feel like that
i feel like that all the time

It feels impossible sometimes

ocd is f***ing awful i wouldnt wish this on anyone

I might be a little mentally ill tbh

someone just blow my f***ing brain out already

blast off buckshot into my ceiling

like what the f*** is the point

meds arent working
d**** arent working
life only gets worse

mfs always tell you to “keep going” but for what when the road forward is just full of pain and misery.

im not a masochist. im tired of being hurt. i just want it all to be over

its over. im done

Hey bro, I know nothing anyone tells you will help how you feel inside, but I just wanted to tell you you’re not alone.

Everyday, it’s a struggle for me to not think about suicide. Just stay strong as much as you can & don’t let your demons win

kundalini s***

iykyk

u ever done psychedelics?

they can make s*** move way faster psychologically/physiologically

some people are meant for that s***. its a lot to handle but if u can it can lead to some amazing transformations

tinnitus is crazy

i hear a loud ass ringing sound constantly

im convinced its the high ohm frequency of our local god but my doctors disagree

aint no f***ing point dog all im doing is delaying the inevitable

s***s not gonna get better

makes me sad to hear that bro. I am sorry man, truly

i feel like if i take psychs whatevers stopping me from killing myself is just gonna go away

to be honest it sounds like u have decided that life isnt worth it

your apprehension is good because what youre describing does happen, it happened to me, psychs led me to believe there is something greater than this world

but the beauty of it is, in this life, we have a purpose and we have a desire to fulfill that purpose. psychs can teach u how even though this world isnt always good or fun, its worth it because in this life we prove ourselves. we get to learn things that can take us to a better place. this life is necessary for that reason

all is mind

i jus wanna add that psychs arent necessary and u can find ur purpose without them

psychs speed things up, for better or worse

it can be quite dark man, i remember being in a psych ward (not a psychedelic ward just a normal mental hospital) lying on the floor for hours, just crying my heart out. but that s*** is good sometimes. that s*** means ur evolving and letting go of s***

I think y'all so brave.

Y'all acknowledge your problems and still wake up and face the day. You can't underestimate how dope that is.

I want to stop all of this physically exhausting activity and just work on my art but it's the only thing that keeps me sane