same boat as me mate it's addictive asf

man... I'm sad for no reason rn... im sad and pissed off . Well there is a reason but im probably just overlooking it

anxiety is back full circle

Things have been on the up and up for me lately. Still a lot of work to do. But we're all gonna make it lads

Thanks I looked it up, seems interesting. Been thinking bout going back to theraphy but idk it's scary. I went for a few months like 2 years ago, but I just stopped showing up and answering their calls when I felt it got too deep.

I find that keeping busy helps. (music, weed, alcohol, gym, work etc..) I know it's not healthy but it's just so easy.

feeling so down
watching films make me zone out and stop thinking about s*** for a while plus its fun

Wish i could be handsome

have to go to school tomorrow 😔

Yeah honestly s*** is pretty scary. Having all those repressed emotions come out at once is going to hurt but it's part of healing. Keeping busy like u said is easy but that s***s just putting a band aid on a knife wound.

Imma be honest too it's not like having repressed emotions resurface is suddenly gon make u better, in fact, once u do remember whatever happened there's a good chance it'll send u deeper into depression but at the end of the day u needa hit rock bottom before u can bounce back up. Take s*** at your own pace and do s*** when ur ready for it.

Anyway bro have a pleasent day

yeah thanks bro, you're right. im gonna try next year

GO TALK TO A PROFESSIONAL RIGHT NOW

Don't dwell on this

ITS NOT YOUR FAULT

My job takes up 90% of my life and its soul crushing

Even when it’s going well, this whole “life” s*** gets boring mane

Makes me wonder what’s the point of putting in all this work

Crazy how life is what you make it and I’m here with 7500 s***posts

I used to love coming to work, now it’s ducking disgusting

Tomorrow i will go to the doctor and im so scared because its the only faith i have and im gonna tell that man that i have been a week and a half without getting out of bed, i had 3 meals this whole week without throwing up em, been crying the whole time, i have suicidal thoughts again and i cant sleep bc of nightmares or anxiety and he's just gonna say "take a few walks" or gonna get me a 45min session with a psychologist in 4 months so she can give me some useless pills at best and honestly im just so tired

anyone else feel anxiety on steroids in the winter season? wtf is that

Not good at all right now. I feel like the only reason I'm still alive is because i haven't found a way to end it yet. I dwell on how im gonna do it all day but i can never come up with a method i know for sure will work. Attempting and failing and then having to live in whatever state ill be in afterwards is frightening

hey man you should see a therapist or someone about this if you didnt already. that's a really tough thing to deal with mentally and it would traumatize me for sure

maybe there are mental health services/therapy through the college?

u need a better doctor and therapist man

Suffering is a part of the life and i should accept it