dog I feel like if I get past health anxiety I should be straight

I gotta get my sternum back straight and then the anxiety will likely go away, but I cant tell yall (im sure you all know) how wonky the brain can get in a hurry. I look at memories I had a year ago and I was just an entirely different mfer living an entirely different life.

it might be for the best tho (I could go into detail but this post already too long)

not trying to pretend to know your background, but I think repeat micro traumas I stuffed under for so long in my formative years (Im 21), really resulted in an explosive bipolar like way of thinking in HS

Im still not even past it to this day, but I figure its not truly bipolar disorder bc its something I at my core know I can control, I just like the feeling until the guilt trips

Never had a real relationship in my life

today was not a good day

just feel terrible and numb

Who in here was diagnosed with clinical depression ?

i really can't trust anyone

Lol who wasn’t may be a better question

I wish I could stop caring about my my appearance and attractiveness to other people but I can’t and it breaks me down a little more each day

i barely could sleep

had a panic attack earlier, was crying and shaking for an hour or so straight... I'm calmed a bit now though

still feel terrible

@lil_clam feeling better now?

not really no

I'm calm though

Ayo

when going through benzo withdrawals I had them nearly every day, but I have them normally too

I desperately need help

are you going to try to get help? do you know how

i just need to not be alone

Im that person people try to avoid getting involved with

bout to miss another appointment with my doc

I just have no motivation to do anything

Mfs pretendin like they care, others just straight up don’t give a f***

Same, don’t know how much longer I can last like this

They gonna regret ignoring my calls for help when they see me swinging