bdd is such a stupid condition ugh

I say this to myself so often but im trying to fix it. It's hard but I gotta try

The closest thing ive had to a girlfriend/ real intimacy and i get ghosted and tossed to the side like nothing. Thinking about it has been crushing my self esteem. I feel unlovable

Im only at peace when im high

hate this s***

dont feel good

i hate being lonely

Keep worrying about every single thing

Cant ease my mind for one second

So exhausting

Can't do this feel like my time is soon

Never felt more trapped in my life. I f***ing hated where I was at and the world had to f***ing freeze at that very moment and I’ve been trapped in this personal hell for months. I just want to get out of here man.

i wanna die

F*** family. I'm not even sure where I'll be living next month...

done nothing but lay in my bed all day I really dont want to do anything

i dont know how i ended up here. everyone is dead, gone or also mentally broken. I cant stand to see my friends sad too. i feel so f***ing alone and have put myself through so much for what feels like f***ing nothing

Bpd?? Yeah I'm p sure my ex had that s***. F***ed us both up real good. Wouldn't wish that s*** on my worst enemy.

@santi can I ask what's your dose of seroquel?

Popped a klono im flying

tomorrow I finally get my lorazepam gonna be high all day

Getting my scripts tomorrow too bro dont over do it tho fam

i deadass have no one

Can’t even sleep more then 4 hours lately

I want the pain to end not get worse