Take it as a lesson and move on. I dont need people, they just weigh you down. Keep my head straight and focus on my goals

I learned this a while ago but for some reason decided to go against it this past year. Bad idea

lol

I deserve it tho, i straight up went out sad. can only blame myself for not having discipline

Applying to jobs tomorrow I’ll earn that money back within a couple months hopefully

You have to live what you have to live to harness your full power and be the best version of yourself. You know it already so cheer the f*** up, the road to excellence isn't easy but you're intelligent and if you stay strong enough and resilient, you'll get there.

It's your only way. Forward. Failure is impossible except if you quit. Being so dedicated to your journey that you want to end your life because you met resistance? That's passion. With passion, strength and intelligence, I don't see how you can fail in your endeavors.

Feel like I'm floating, not sure if in positive or negative direction. Can't lose myself again even though I know I will. Healing isn't linear.

I'm just so tired. All I know is being tired.

May All Beings Be Happy

Love You

It could all be so simple

@glofulmind @Username2

Facts. I have what it takes. I have literally everything needed to succeed. Suicide rn seems almost silly. I've done things most humans couldn't achieve and that makes me special just off that. So what I couldn't be the "best". I was f***ing close. How many people can say that? Barely f***ing none

I'm applying to college and putting 100% of my focus on that

I believe in you my dude. On your way there, don't forget to check yourself to try to identify what could give you that extra inch to f*** the world even deeper and get the crown, don't be complacent!

This is true. I think I've gotten over this phase of trauma/healing...I seem to be in the void that comes after. Have been for a few years.

Feels similar to the dark night of the soul.

"I fear that love may not be enough"

Yeah I feel you. I'm the same right now you know. That's a lie, I've always been this way. But it makes us stronger. Way stronger than people with brains that don't try to kill them. Let's just endure it, what other choice is there? Death? Just go out of your comfort zone, put clothes on right now and go somewhere in your neighborhood you've never been before and you'll see how much dying would be a waste. A ton more places exist you haven't been to in the world.

F*** love, it's only a feeling. Don't make my mistake, it doesn't make you whole, it makes you addicted. You'll find love, but you shouldn't waste time thinking about it.

Well said brother. I don't plan on leaving this planet any time soon, as much as I feel like I don't belong sometimes. I've grown too much as a result of my pain to give up. Too much beauty to witness. Once I'm healed enough, I'm going to dedicate my life to healing others.

About the love post, I was more referring to the general love I have for this world, and the beings that inhabit it. The love that we should all have for each other, but don't.

Romantic love is tricky. You're right, it doesn't and shouldn't make you whole. It can be beautiful, and a couple of times in my life I've been deeply impacted by it. Moments and words that will stick with me till I do leave this planet, and hopefully after. But I don't rely on it. If anything I'm afraid of it.

im a psychopath according to people

but I will be a successful and happy one

You were seeking strength, justice, splendour
You were seeking love
Here is the pit, here is your pit
It's name is Silence

Biggest waste of potential in the world if I were to just kill myself lmao what was I thinking

night time I really come alive god damn

Haven't eaten s*** today and im not even hungry food's a waste of time

I also do that. One time this girl in high school asked me why I do it and I just laughed it off and said I didnt know. I think for me its cause I dont wanna get too close to people because I dont want them knowing about my inadequacies

Remember when my dad called me a lost cause and threated to beat me in the middle of the psych ward? nigga didn't even finish high school

i'm boutta go to college and not look back on those f*** niggas

I'm gonna become the most selfish human being of all time. I dont care

Weed really be f***ing me up fam lol like I feel so weird after I smoke. But I love the euphoria I get. , which is why I do it alone. Anyone else?

Weird how?

And idk what it is, but sometimes when I’m out in public, my legs feel like they could give out, like I could just faint but I always have to fight to keep upright or I just sit down somewhere. Is this anxiety? Low iron? Doesnt happen all the time, but it happened today when I was high as well

A nigga just be feelin like an NPC character when I’m trippin around others lol like I’m there but I’m not there. I’m on cloud 9 literally