i hate this s*** so much

i need to go hermit mode

dont wanna sleep cause I dont wanna be alone with my thoughts

I cant wait to take my meds and go to sleep

this living s*** aint for me

coffee cigs n music keeping me ''sane'' right now lol

f*** nightmares tho

sometimes I picture myself inside a coffin and that thought pattern terrifies me

It's over. I don't have any more energy or strength to keep pushing against this s***

physically sick

self concept is gone. no belief

I can’t even cry anymore lmao

my bff just sent me a long ass text and called me Im insincere and toxic so he probably gon cut me off

wasn’t feeling too bad today and then my mood plummeted out of nowhere and i’ve been in bed doing nothing feeling like garbage since

appetite is nonexistent

yesterday was one of the worst days of my life but I feel a lil better today

and I just woke up

What happened?

Damn, didn’t know this thread was like this, y’all ❤️
Also suffering from depression and pressing forward primarily out of guilt and routine.

i haven’t eaten in almost 24 hours

embrace death

i’ve had the realization that there is not a single person that i’m close with. family, friends whatever. i swear to god loneliness is one of the worst things for a human being to experience, we’re meant to be social beings not alone all the f***ing time

the worst thing about it is that i do it to myself. i take full responsibility for the way i’m feeling and have no ill will towards anyone. i dug my own grave

don't know if you like the joe rogan podcast or not but this has helped me on the topic of loneliness.

everything I'm not made me everything I am

and I'm criying

The amount of good just going running did for my mental health and now I'm just stuck

thanks for sharing, there was some pretty insightful stuff in there

The voices are back and I need to stop talking back to em