Cats

6y

I don't care much about being recorded by like my phone or something but I see what you mean. I'm just really paranoid due to untreated illness. It's crippling

deans

6y

how old are you?

Cats

6y

I'm 19

deans

6y

oh bruh you got time man i'm only 4 years younger you still have time for a family and many other things

Cats

6y

I don't want a family. I don't really have an interest in life and I definitely don't wanna pass on my genes. Feel like that'd be selfish. I'm really not sure what I want to do in life. I'm still lost even though im an adult

deans

6y

you want to travel do you like food do you enjoy movies games music ?/

Cats

6y

Traveling would be nice considering I've never done it before but I have no one to do it with and I don't think I'll ever have someone to travel with.

I do love music. I listen and make music. It's really what keeps me going. I play video games sometimes mainly just to pass the time.

What are your hobbies?

deans

6y

I love music and gaming movies too and never say that u won't find someone to travel with man I guarantee you a lot of people would love to be your friend you just don't know yet

Cats

6y

I get left behind by every friend and friend group I've been apart of. Only person that hasn't given up on me yet is my mom, I love her to death.

I hope one day I'll have a close friend or a partner but idk it just doesn't seem likely to me. I've never been liked by people my entire life

deans

6y

same man I always used to be with popular people but they're all fake asf I am sort of attractive but recently i've just kept to myself atleast in this country people seem very rude

Cats

6y

Yeah I consider people to be inherently selfish. That's just human nature. Another reason why I dont like life. Something you can't really battle.

But maybe i'm wrong. I am mentally ill and had a bad childhood anyway

deans

6y

well yeah people are s***heads that are jealous and cruel but there are some people very rarely that truly care for others

Cats

6y

You're young so I don't wanna influence you on my philosophy cause it's a toxic one but I can see where you're coming from

deans

6y

well I can't say my life has been very positive so far i've watched addiction f*** people over. seen people be completely oblivious to reality. I had a friend who's dad shot a homeless man for asking for money that kid sells d**** now and kills people and my dad isn't exactly perfect by any means neither am I tho

Cats

6y

Sorry you had to go through that at a young age. I know what it's like to have bad things happen and not really be able to process it cause you're so young.

I'm currently addicted to benzos but trying to get off them now. Been on a taper for a couple days. I should be off them by next week. If there's one thing I can tell you it's just to not touch benzos cause the withdrawals aren't worth it and you'll get dependent on them

deans

6y

never smoked cigs never will I juuled for 1 day and quit cause it's bs only thing I would do is weed

Cats

6y

I don't like cigs either. I didn't feel much from them and they didn't seem worth it. I try to stay away from weed cause psychosis

deans

6y

my dad smokes he's done it for 37+ years and it costs so much money it's honestly stupid my mom quit 10 years ago

Cats

6y

My mom was addicted to cigs for like 30 years also. It really messed up her lungs. It just doesn't seem worth it to me

deans

6y

ye I agree my problem rn is school it's in a different language and Ijust don't have the motivation to try right now we moved from Beverly Hills to some s*** country so it's a lot different and we're also broke broke now so i'm not a rich kid

Cats

6y

That sucks. Hope s*** gets better for you.

deans

6y

it won't my dad kinda lost his business in the past he has no idea how to run a company anymore things have changed and he isn't really working on changing he also works in diamonds so nobody really buys them anymore.

Cats

6y

oh s*** wtf you're young as f***. Please dont make a decision like that at that age. There's definitely hope for you. Go seek help or reach out to someone. Like now. I waited too late

NakedBalenciaga

6y

Nigga YOU’RE young as f***