Not strictly is insano

She got a really bad case of COVID with her having a compromised immune system a couple weeks ago and had to go to the hospital, based on the last time we talked.

I didn’t hit her up for 2 weeks because we aren’t together anymore but I still wanted to check and see if she was doing ok and maybe go to brunch or something just to catch up.

Just to basically be told nicely “Don’t hit me up anymore I’m with someone now”

a day for the books indeed

F*** bro ughhh I know how that feels I’m sorry gang

Also idk maybe crop her name out just in case (?) unless you don’t care

It’s a nickname for her.

Okay just checking. But yeah my first major ex is pregnant rn which hit really crazy when I found out & my other serious ex blocked me over the most insane s***

I’m doing my best to just keep it moving

Going through it together

I think what I’ve learned is you just gotta appreciate that person when you have them, for however long that may be.

Because it’s not going to last forever and your 2 choices are either wallowing in the loss or accepting that loss is naturally apart of the cycle of life and to be grateful for what you had.

I’m pretty much over that ex at this point romantically, it was just that last sting of her finally getting with someone else after me.

Be quiet I'm bruises

Yeah without going into too much detail bc it’d be a novel the one who’s pregnant I actually was like happy to hear about this time but there was some stuff last year when first “reconnected” that really broke what remained of my feelings for her but it was really necessary

The second one stings a lot tho because ultimately the reason she stopped talking to me was something I didn’t do at all and it really hurt that she used it as the reason to cut me out. Had she just wanted to stop talking to me and that was it I could have swallowed it easier

I’m tryna be better about not dwelling on my past but idk I have a tendency to put my past on a pedestal and then I f*** up my current stuff

Contribute to sad hours or begone!

You don't know what you're saying buddy

Don't make bruises start over sharing

Because I'll do it

It’s over sharing hours it brings pals together

My sad contributions arent juicy romantic stories though

Like I struggle daily with suicidal ideation but that's not like fun to chat about

See now look what you did

The thread died on that

Anw I'll contribute to the SADNESS

it f***ing SUCKS to get ghosted on in the most random way after telling me that you do want to spend time with me and that you wouldn't want me to feel bad????? how the hell does that make sense?...

ngl I know that it shouldn't be a big deal because it's only been a month but in reality im weak when it comes to these things and I haven't received this feeling from someone else in a min..so i'll prolly get over it after a couple days but today i kinda cried

I often think about doing it but I also have an intense fear of death that will never allow it to be anything more than a thought exercise

I will go months wondering what the hell I’m even doing here

I'm just really anxious in general and hesitate to act upon things but it was getting a little worse for a while there so I rushed and got a cat as like a reason than I can't I guess which is funny because now I have this cat to take care of and I'd feel bad

Which is weird because like if I wanted to why would I try to find reasons to make me not you know

It's like a constant battle that makes no sense

Yep. Like when it’s time it’s time I’m not doing that s***

not that you asked but I don’t think you’re weak at all for that. Getting ghosted sucks a lot, it hurts. You’ll spend days just wondering what you could have done differently or why you weren’t good enough. At least I do when it’s happened to me. Idk relationships aren’t logical a month is like insignificant but it’s still something you can be upset about for a bit of time as long as it doesn’t get drawn out ya know?

sorry she ghosted you tho but Ik you’ll meet someone even better soon, hopefully they’ll reciprocate your energy. You’ll make someone happy one day

in case y'all curious I been up tremendous

Vibe shift gonna be something serious

Cat pic or shut it !