I be feeling motivated 95% of the time, but that 5% just has me feeling so s***ty some days...

I deadass wonder if it's depression. But I know the causes for what makes me feel down

Going down the hole again

Havent done any work in 4 days

What was the point of getting my life together if I just ended up in the same place mentally

Depressed and lonely

I turned to religion for salvation but it’s all looking like a sham Why am I still suffering when my heart can’t take anymore? I push myself so hard every single f***ing day just to get crumbs in exchange

I can’t even cry anymore I shed enough tears already I’m just so angry

My therapist the goat, god bless her I am not worthy

Maybe this s*** ain't about you. Maybe your life is insignificant. Maybe your life is about the people you come in contact with and how you influence them just do you be great and try to be a positive influence in your peoples lives and motivate them in a positive way you ain't gonna be around forever but your influence might. If you gotta be fake happy for there sake f*** it. I ain't happy anyways. But don't be doing s*** you don't want to do. Do s*** you want to do out of the goodness of your heart if you do something do it because you want to and expect nothing in return from no one. Im not religious but I believe I have a relationship with God/the universe/something and I believe he/she protects me. Sometimes I push my luck and I'm lucky to be here tbh but everyone runs out of luck eventually I gotta get it together.

Love you guys I hope you guys have been doing good. I been going on benders wyling the f*** out. I'm chilling now Cali sober I smoke weed and drink occasionally. We gon be alright fam ♥️

Talking about religion that boy jesus supposedly died for us. He didn't have to do that s*** in theory. He was well aware he was going to get betrayed and die a horrible death and he went thru with it he said I don't give a f*** this s*** ain't about me it's bigger than me im here for a reason let's go.

This is going to be my mood all f***ing year

You are worthy! shoutout therapists

floating away from reality

not gon lie im really not afraid to go to hell so i hope nobody ever tries me bc i will be ready

Blew my own life up for some reason !

Do any of you find your depressive moods come in waves?

In what length of periods?

Do you mean in specific months or more just day-to-day?

I find it can last up to 2-3 weeks. And during that period I'm not 100% down all the time; it can fluctuate between very low to low.

Past 2 weeks or so I've been in a bad state but last two days it got really bad. Woke up today kinda lost but I'm processing things better and understand how my mind works a bit more.

Last time I was a in depressive state prior to these 2 weeks was late november and that lasted a similar amount of time

doing this as we speak

I got the exact same thing!

I think what i am doing during the day affects it though, what about you?

Yeah I agree things trigger that state. But it’s difficult to fight those triggers sometimes. And it’s hard to keep up with.

Past few months I’ve been learning software engineering and between a few days after Christmas to mid jan I was doing so well and getting so much work done then it just completely flipped. I’m doing ok right now tryna get back into a productive flow hopefully

Exactly the same, it’s okay (:

It is hard to set that first step again when you are in a low, but i feel like after a while you realize when it is getting bad and then you just need to have that power to do something about it.

Time is a insane luxury. Try to enjoy it as much as you can!!!!