i always hear people say that if you experience or witness abuse in your household you're more likely to be abusive yourself but it had the opposite effect on me. idk where my idealism came from but i always grew up wanting to the live the most idealised family life despite being exposed to the complete opposite

PTSD hitting like a f***ing truck right now lol wtf

Hollewood PTSD

How you feeling at the moment?

I hope it works out for us.. I've had hope for a while, so its a damn s*** feeling when s*** doesn't work out.

We'll be okay.. I hope

Hungover, trying not to throw up atm. It’s too damn early (6 AM)

Hbu

I’ve been so f***ing mellow these past few weeks

I just wanna let go

Year already on bullshit. oh boy. I guess another year of this.

It will, when you really look at it, as long as we are alive we at least have one person that really does love us. No matter what we tell ourselves the love is always there underneath.

i don’t know why i’m here and if i really even want to be here

i still wanna go to an empty field and scream

I’m not gonna let last night’s drunk s*** impede growth. It was a misstep, I’m back up now.

2021 more wins

go get it king we're all behind you

It affects people differently. Even serial killers have brothers/sisters who turned out perfectly normal.

HATE that you feel this way. but don't make a permanent decision off a temporary situation. things will get better I promise

oh nah i feel the same, i’d never commit suicide, just very inquisitive on my existence, why i wasn’t born neurotypical and why i was put on the planet. but thanks for the kind words brodie 💙

At the moment, Im alright. Trying to keep busy but that's hard to do.

It’s a new year what’s done is done. I’m leaving you behind in 2020 that Westbrook mentality is always gonna be me if you pop back up though. Just no longer giving it active thought

I dont wanna be too negative in here but do you ever just sit and hate yourself