same sometimes I have great dreams because they are nostalgic and sweet and then I wake up and it’s nothing like that so those dreams hurt

I started doing Russell Brand’s recovery program and it’s not bad he really put things in interesting perspective. I’m doing his worksheets like it’s homework

how did it go fam?

sorry to read this bro

I had an outburst at work a few years ago but they spared me cause nothing was broke and i just cussed out a supervisor.

Hope you get a second chance bro! keep us updated if you want

dont do it bro.

keep your head up high and keep pressing forward. dont stop trying to be a better person everyday and that will help you stop feeling so empty.

I’m going to emphasise the point it should be my manager being investigated not me, i should never of been in that situation, apparently my manager was in the office being interviewed for two hours yesterday, hopefully that was just to the report I sent to HR about him, can’t see how it would take two hours to speak about what I did

for 2 hours? yeah i would say the blame is gonna come down hardest on him.

unless he was inside changing stories or something during the interview 2 hours is insane.

have you heard any news about your employment?

Anybody here diagnosed with anxiety and bipolar disorder, and refuse to take the d**** they give you because "they don't work" so you self medicated and destroyed your life. Now you're trying to do everybody sober again but it's 1000x harder because you've f***ed your brain, mentality, way of thinking etc up from excessive use of d**** and alcohol. Not to mention the times you've fallen and smashed your head, had a seizure from withdrawal, or gotten jumped by people (I was by 4 bikers, I think i got some good shots in though). Or a time that you overdosed on fentanyl smashed your head, got robbed by the other addicts then narcan'd, with no actual memory of what happened but you have an idea, instead you woke up in your bed covered head to toe in blood.

I just can’t wait until it’s over to be honest, few things worse than lack of job certainty

praying for good news for you bro!

It is interesting.

My mind feels like it doesn't hold weight like it usually does. It makes me tired.

Second session was just a few minutes ago. 28 more to go

Just getting that stuff out in the open really helps cleanse the mind bro...cheers to more prosperous sessions

9-10 hours of silence is a good thing when it comes to this thread imo.

Hope all of y’all are staying safe and happy

If anyone wants to talk in private I’m here for ya!

you too bro <33

❤️

i gotta go see my psychiatrist to get more pills and i'm almost done the bottle

i dont know man... i just don't want this all to be a ruse because my pills make me happier but i also don't wanna go back to how i used to be. like i don't want my happiness to only feel genuine because my pills make me feel better, i want to be honestly content with myself.
but i'm so used to beating myself up even when i'm doing well so it's just like a tug of war inside of my mind and i can barely even describe it with words

I need to overcome my fear of dating apps. I’m worried that it will set me back as my confidence in myself is in a great place. But constant rejection sucks.

At the same time though, I genuinely do not see myself meeting a companion any other way. I’m at the age where to me, a partner is most important and what I desire tbh.

Don’t know if I’m ever going to love myself. Everything is so empty

push forward...one day at a time

i wish i had known this existed before

gonna be here a lot now

everyday feels more unbearable

not 24/7 for me.....there's happy moments and things I'm grateful for and I can appreciate em more when the pain seems endless

stuff like waking up and seeing another day when someone somewhere did not make it to the dawn

or

a hot shower in this time of the year and a clean shave or self-care in general.....

still, I have too many ups and downs and even though the downs make me wanna kms and ups drive me crazy there's always minutes of happiness that I wouldnt enjoy otherwise or even worse take em for granted

I’ve been in love twice but never been loved once

Man :/

How you 27 without having been in a loving relationship once? Man s***’s hard bruh.. Idk what I gotta do other than not repeating the same choices from the previous experiences.

I think I need to be comfortable in cutting stuff short when there is no reciprocation. I cannot put myself in another relationship where im doing the affection.. Like man why am I constantly getting with women who dont like to express feelings 💀.