I'm so pathetic

F*** this

@Bourbon_Ben

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you really not fam, you gonna bounce back.

you been feeling any better?

shoutout op man, you really are making a difference

my anxiety attacks have been coming more frequent, not entirely sure why but hopefully me going to the gym again keeps it at bay

My favorite pet I've ever had died today, feel like I have nothing left to get me out of bed in the morning

I'd do anything for one more day with her

im so sorry bro, my dogs getting old as well sometimes i lose sleep thinking about the inevitable

You been changing your routine of any sort?

Hang in there family. It gets better. That pain eventually turns into warmth.

Sorry to hear that fam. I still remember when my mom called me telling me my dog was about to pass.

Look at some pictures and videos and remember the good times. Time heals all!

nope

genuinely hate going to therapy so much

i could cancel this appointment right now lmao

Tbh I’ve started going recently and I’m not sure what to make of it yet. It makes me feel like s*** about myself but maybe I need that.

This s*** isn’t fun anymore guys

I haven’t been this mad at myself in a While and I really don’t want to cut but god damn I have nothing to take this frustration out on

this is my second go around, first time i was going from august 2018 to june or july of 2019 but i eventually stopped showing up. just started going again about three weeks ago

idk this s*** just feels like pulling teeth now and i hate to say it but i don't think i care enough about myself for me to want to do this again lol

kinda makes me hate myself even more because this is something that's here to help me but instead i don't wanna do it because i've already given up on myself and don't feel like trying to pull myself out of this s*** anymore

oh well, maybe i'll have a better outlook on this the deeper i get into it

I got to journal and do self assessment if a leaf flys by too fast

Why it gotta be like that

Feel sad and cant sleep

at my lowest point rn

I feel so alone. Don’t wanna go to this funeral

Naw man I’m seriously at the point where I need clinical help

I understand where you're coming from..

That word though.. Hope. I've had that for a while, but with my current situation, it feels like it's gone

Im just flat at the moment.. Almost numb. Aim at work in the bathroom trying not to break down lol

not ready for the big changes I’m boutta be hit with not just because of how different my life’s gonna be but also because the pandemic made me comfortable as hell at home for the past year