How can i be surrounded by people and feel so alone

Got that butterflies feeling in my stomach for the first time in a longtime about someone..

Idk why it never even registered until now, but I was driving home and thought of this girl and got hit with a strong desire to be around her.

We make eachother laugh all the time and I enjoyed spending time with her when we used to.. She was with somebody but that’s done now. And we’ve been talking more. She’s beautiful and even tho we aren’t super similar we get along. This has lit a spark in me again to try.

I can’t remember the last time I felt like I needed more time with a specific person. So, looks like I’m gonna try and open up one more time. I hope I’m not reading s*** wrong again

I’m smiling ear to ear like a b**** rn tho I’m ngl

i'm sad AS F***

not even gonna lie. my demons beating my ass rn.

seems like everyone be living tf outa life but me

I can’t continue to grow without owning my mistakes from the past and learning.

So I had to send out some uncomfortable apologies to people I haven’t spoke with in months, years even.

The more time passes the more reflection reveals. And it revealed to me that in multiple situations, I’ve been the bad guy. And I don’t want that to be my legacy to those people. Cant fix everything but I’ll try to fix what I can.

That was the last message I promise, otherwise Westbrook mean nothin

my head kills from thinking ahhhhh

delusions are the worst thing ever

s*** goes beyond logic and reason

I shouldnt argue with the voices in my head. I should ignore em instead

if your attempt is honest you'll get through to them

but dont label yourself as the ''bad guy''....have mercy on yourself before you can be forgiven by others

It was necessary. Some of these people I was incredibly close with and even though it’s over I want the last thing I said to atleast try to repair some damage done.

I don’t need anything in return tbh, nor do I even expect a reply. These people aren’t just lukewarm about me, they dislike me. And I understand the reasons.

aight fam. Pardon me intruding

Don’t want to live thats craaaazy

Feel like nobody respects me or I’m alway like the end of a joke…. Man

I be second guessing everything in life man

I’ve never been in any situation where I’ve actually felt like I’ve fit in… why do I have to be like this

Feels like my brain not wired correctly or sumn

said goodbye to a new group of friends i made online

made one really good friend there that i plan to keep in touch with

bittersweet but i've been wasting time man. confronting that and some other issues is stressful

tracks from KSG and Ye been the theme song to my life the past couple years if thats any explanation of the state im in currently.

You weren’t intruding, just letting you know this was a situation I owned up to.