I have so much s*** bottled it up I’m boutta self destruct

made so many bad decisions since a kid

everyone i grew up w is doing better than me rn w no exceptions its crazy

Honestly glad I have the job I have now. More so because if I didn't, I would've gone crazy and would've been super depressed.

And even then though, I still have the thoughts of is this it? Am I not capable of more here? How much time do I have left to do the stuff I can until its officially too late? Am I going to die alone, and not find the girl for the rest of my life?

Things are good considering what has been going on. But I do anticipate once when it's over that it'll get better.

I really been on antidepressants since 2nd grade

My brain permanently tainted

Can't tell if I have chronic depression, anxiety disorder, schizophrenia, or all of them. It feels like I'm waging war against my own brain 24/7.

Quitting my antidepressants. It helped with my depression but didn't do anything for my anxiety.

Whenever I try to do something my anxiety be birdman hand rubbing

You want to make a good impression with new people huh? Nah nigga I don't think so

Haven't posted here in a while I'm not really doing better or anything. I'm still thuggin it tho, I don't have a choice. Gotta keep going. Last year was terrible, this year's not really looking better but it can't be worse 🤞so I got that going for me I guess. But I do realize this is just temporary and just a phase in my life. Things will get better for me and hopefully for you guys too.

Just treading these waters man.

I wish i could correct my wild list of overcorrections through the years

Ha! Who knows when the pendulum will stop!

Staying busy helps me with my anxiety. If I stay occupied working towards things I find my thoughts focus on that. Even like obsessing over a new hobby like chess or something passive like watching boxing or racing and learning about the rules, history, culture, legends etc... Just throw yourself at stuff you'll be surprised at the things you can enjoy. When I'm depressed I don't feel like doing s*** I feel tired,drained and just want to give up. But with anxiety I have to constantly keep myself occupied I feel like my mind races 100mph so I might as well channel that energy into something if I don't I'll feel restless and bad about myself my thoughts aren't exactly positive it's like I have a bully living inside in my head.

Another quiet weekend...

I have a good job and I’m making more money than I have in my life but somehow I’m in an even worse mental state than I’ve ever been in smh

Was I put on this earth just to suffer

ebbs and flows

I’m so down bad rn death don’t seem too bad

What were you taking? Lexapro has been good for my anxiety.

same =(

Don’t know how much longer I can keep doing this

Did y’all see that story in the UK of the 13 year old who jumped in the river? His suicide note was heartbreaking

This headache I got rn is insane

Turns out Elon Musk has aspergers. Incredibly inspiring

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