is there a psychedelics thread on here? or section

holy s*** I want to kill myself

It's not good.

It's not

It's complicated

I don't believe in real connection anymore

Life in isolation is the only life you can know

Cannot confide in anyone. Honesty is a myth. Love is a myth. Concepts subject to the individual. The individual has won. Societal progress has won. It's paradoxical.

We are parts to the whole, deterministic in non finite ways.

Without shared experience nothing means anything.

I spent my whole life trying to go against the common ways in which people think.

I find myself with an amalgamation of obscure knowledge that I cannot seem to use in an empirically impactful way.

I exist in counter values. I feel narcissistic, overconfident, and insecure all at once. The more people I meet the more alien I feel.

The world is filled with walking heads that represent fragments of what is the whole. I seem to find only pieces in others. I view my believe system above others. Not in a I'm better of people way, but rather I feel as if I have a better understanding of the world kind of way.

More scope. But it's all just my colored tint.

People. I included. Are remedial

I live solely on the hope that I can work myself into a position to find someone I can connect to.

Unfortunately I think I'm intolerable

People just want to be normal an I just want to make everything some abstract convoluted thing

Created my own reality archetype and persona to live in it alone.

I don't have solutions. I don't really even know what a solution is

loneliness is killing me rn

apparently i got ptsd like the real one not in a joking way lol

ktt helps

It does tbh, if you ever need to talk I’m here bro

same goes to you

u wanna talk about it

I appreciate it

long day tomorrow, prob gonna have to ask my prof for a last minute extension like a dumbass

The fact that I post in here when I really wanna talk to a person IRL is a downer, wish I could reach out to my people