Falling apart at the seams.

No breathing room.

i know you see no other option.

in fact you probably feel as though you're unable to see another option.

and thats the scary part.

as far as steps in order to get help?
have you tried?

I wake up early and still cant sleep early. Feel like crap throughout the day

Stressed abt starting up college again

How do y’all deal with a lack of appetite when you’re going through a rough patch

This is horrible

Working out helps me feel hungry

Haven’t been working out after I got on meds last week.
1/2 pill in the morning
1/2 pill at night
I hate taking pills
I miss when I didn’t

I was happy in the haze of a drunken hour
But heaven knows I'm miserable now
I was looking for a job and then I found a job
And heaven knows I'm miserable now

In my life, why do I give valuable time
To people who don't care if I live or die?

Two lovers entwined pass me by
And heaven knows I'm miserable now
I was looking for a job and then I found a job
And heaven knows I'm miserable now

In my life, oh, why do I give valuable time
To people who don't care if I live or die?

story time

unfortunately i think i've developed some kind of weed induced paranoia

which means i also have to quit smoking. i guess i'm just not made for any substance

me, one of my friends and a bunch of his friends went to go hang out in a field in a nature preserve for his birthday

we bought tarps to sit on and mosquito candles and liquor

so we were chilling in the field for like 5 minutes getting drunk

waiting for more ppl to show up (someone was suppose to bring a tent ) and my friend starts saying how he appreciates everyone for coming out tonight

that's when one of his friends notices spot lights from behind the woods s*** looked like alan wake

so everybody starts blowing out the candles in their vicinity grabs liquor and their s*** and runs to the parking lot we hide everything

but instead of my friend grabbing his phone he grabbed 2 bottles of jack daniels

so him and 2 of his friends came up with a plan to get it back and i came along

so we went to a nearby library that had a trail leading back to where we were

we did that got his phone and there was an extra bottle of liquor and chips we picked that up

and started walking back

now heres the scary part

as were walking back we notice there's a cop car at the library waiting for us so we dipped off behind some woods and we had a standoff for like 10 minutes

more squad cars start showing up thats when one of the dudes starts passing round the liquor and chips cause hes like "this the last time we gon eat eat/drink some s*** like this" and we all start eating chips and drinking jack daniels

2 minutes later cops start driving into the woods next to us thats when we dropped everything grabbed our s*** and ran back onto the trail (luckily we had someone with us that knew his way through the woods)

we found a part of the woods which led around a fence through someones back yard to the street we all chilled out a friends house for like an hour

but we still had a couple more things to pull off and the major one was my friends car cause he left it in the nature preserve parking lot

so i stayed in this random kids car waiting for my friend and one of his friends to go get the car

they succeed and we all went to go celebrate at waffle house for the night was amazing

my friend had like 4/5 bottles of jack daniels in his trunk but we really got away with that s*** cops cant fw us

The heat wave has really been pushing me mentally
And the noise of the city keeps growing
This last month has really been a downfall
Eating has become hard
I’m stressed out
Don’t know how I will be able to pay for my life in the future
Don’t know how these mental troubles won’t push my lover away from

Something has to changes

Had to leave work early bc my anxiety is f***ing me up so bad.

Got a new manager too so this will leave a great impression on him.

I would send him an email, (if you can) explaining the situation to make sure the situation is clear

If he's real he'll respek it

I just start sweating buckets due to my anxiety. Like stuff I shouldn't even have anxiety about lmao

im sweating so bad just walking to class and now I have a f***ing sweat mark on my back and my front smh

Really hate this time of year

Took a break from 1 of my meds this weekend(the anti-depressant) and it was nice, but it also gave me the inside info that I need to be on it permanently for sometime.

Thought and good energy to everybody that struggles with mental issues

Jealousy been getting the better of me lately

Doesn’t help that everybody on social media is either hating or showing off tho

yoga finally hit

I want God to kill me.

Hate how my friend seemingly abandoned me, ever since he started hanging out with his work buddies. Keep in mind he still hangs out with his old best friend here and there, making it seem like I’m the only one who isn’t considered as a “priority”. Been going on for around 6 months now.

If he continues this for another month it gotta come to confrontation. Dgaf cuz this happened to me several times so far, can’t take this anymore. Besides, need to practice standing up for myself and not have others view me as a doormat.