Its funny

Ever since i gave myself to the darkness ppl rly been fw the music

Thank you! Something that’s been over my head for awhile, can’t believe I’m finally doing it!

Burnt out on everything

Need to hold it together for a week

Super depressed

These breathing exercises do not work for me. My anxiety was so bad today that I felt like I was about to pass out at work earlier.

Finally sleepy last night
I used to take zinc, magnesium and melatonin, but some weeks ago I cut out zinc because my stomach was having issues.

Took zinc again last night after learning that could be reason I was not getting sleep.

It felt so good to get sleep again and wake up rested

Searching for answers

I don’t wanna be angry anymore, man. I wish I could relieve myself of that if nothing else.

It feels so tough for me to leave my bed today…

Flight two done

I can’t believe I did it

I was numb last night when I landed but today I’m proud of myself

may need to hop on medication again. Thing is i dont want to deal with the doctor asking me questions again.

15 mg olanzapine

Swinging too far the other way now

I think the abuse and other situations I faced as a child, combined with my innocence being taken away between ages 14-16 thanks to the internet and seeing some of the most f***ed up s*** ever has truly cooked my mind as I near 30

But that being said, every day is a new opportunity to be a better person. I won't forget s***, but I won't let it kill me

Around a week later, aint nothing change lmfao.
Might be the only human on earth that doesnt get any sort of morale/confidence boost by going to the gym. It feels good in the moment and im def big and healthier, but mentally i don't feel any better about myself.
Don't even know why im feeling this way rn, might be cuz i feel like im behind compared to other people my age. I still don't got everything about my future figured out, i missed out on some experiences and sometimes i feel out of place in some social settings. I basically feel like im always lacking something. I know thats a bad mindset to have, comparison is the thief of joy and s***, but i cant help it.
Thank God for art, friends and family for keeping me sane.

Really sucks when the only inkling of a dream you have is something you’ll most likely never succeed in lol

Weed lowkey turned me into a b**** ass nigga but i also feel like i woulda lost my mind without it

I'm going to be a cog in the machine till I die aren't I

Mondays 😮‍💨

today marks one year since an event that changed and nearly led to me taking my life. usual life bullshit aside, i'm glad i pulled through

f*** abusers