been depressed as hell recently

the darkest

last line hits deep

I was on a 2 and a half month bender getting s*** faced every night, waking up feeling like s*** every time I woke up. Was heading to a really dark place again and realized I needed to snap out of it.
I’m barely sober again and it feels great waking up like I actually had some decent sleep and memory of the night before. Mental is still a little rocky during random parts of the day but I have hope

I feel you fam

Demons

What do yall do to help. I don’t even know if this is depression but yikes I don’t feel good in the head.

Therapy. Finding a good therapist is everything

Outside of that, meditation (sounds corny or weird but it works wonders). Getting into nature/just outside in general, being around the public and…..

Soften, soothe, allow. Try this exercise a few time throughout the week. The idea is to not fight or argue with the thoughts in your head, but allow them to exist and pass while talking to yourself as if you were talking to a friend

self-compassion.org/practices/soften-soothe-allow-working-with-difficult-emotions

If your loved one or friend came up to you and said they were struggling right now, what would you say? Probably something like “I’m so sorry you’re dealing with this right now” right? So why don’t we say that to ourselves?

Thanks fam. I appreciate you I’m gonna try some things and see. I’m definitely pretty good at not fighting the thoughts and just cruising but it’s been weird.

Where do you get Adderall? I'm having trouble focusing

i feel like there’s so much s*** wrong w me but it’s hard to pinpoint what it is

i have hard time communicating w people, i’m hella antisocial and i want to talk to ppl but it feels so hard

i can sometimes lack empathy for other ppl and only see s*** from my perspective, i lack self awareness

when i drink i don’t know when to stop and i become almost insane when i black out

i’m into very specific things and it’s hard for me to care or learn abt s*** i don’t care abt

i’m like hella hypersexual as well

i look emotionally numb and avoidant when rlly i overthink everything and don’t live in the present

i come off as unpredictable

i just need to write this s*** down bc i’m tryna piece everything together

I always said people in my life are the most important things I value. But this week I didn’t demonstrate that.

I betrayed my ex and her friends who I became close to they let me into their friend group and I betrayed them and I hurt someone I once loved. That feeling of hurting someone you loved sucks really bad I apologize to her and all her friends and I don’t expect anything in return.

I wanted to prove to her she could trust men and they’re not all s***ty but I was s***ty. She has so many trust issues with men in her life and I added to that. I shouldn’t have said anything to my oldest best friend who’s been like a bro to me because he’s changed.

I am fake and not genuine I only care about myself I went to him looking for comfort for my pain when I shouldn’t have. I’m loyal to the wrong people. I lost myself. Even though she my ex I shouldn’t have done that.

I don’t want to just do stuff and not think how it affects other I want to value peoples trust more and not be so trustworthy to everyone I want to actually prove the people in my life mean something to me instead of just say it I deserved to loose it all to learn this lesson

I want to move on from this and start the next chapter in my life I want to go to Guatemala I want to put the work in to be better

happy easter everyone

i pray every day to god for luck and protection

i hope everyone who is feeling down that they get better

spirituality and religion has helped me manage my mental health

cried so hard earlier

i’m currently at my lowest. if i can get thru this i can get thru anything

Yo

Next level anxiety

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH

ever since this i been grinding odeeee