slowly become less unhinged and more normie

1 month down (I know I only posted that a week ago)

nvm

Everything is going well but I feel off

It’s hard

just want a better life for my family, dont even care for myself

i dont know how to escape my doubts. feel like i always leave a lot on the table since i cant escape my negative thoughts. meds only work a bit but i cant expect them to solve everything yknow.

like a just watched this p*** with 41 million views bout this pawg that reminded me about this girl thats all on my d***, dont know why i cant just make my move and f*** her

ate hella noodles today at least

May have just ruined a big opportunity I’ve been waiting for all because of one bad choice

What’s up ppl, I think I am having a break down. Lots of stress, regret, impulse and general irresponsibility this last week.

Think I was hypomanic and am now crashing with the full effect of the world falling down on my head but I won’t make excuses for my carelessness.

Idk wtf to do. I’m literally this:

OCD destroyed me

Hope everyone has a safe and healthy journey through this world

sticky thoughts are a b****

i'm down bad.. i'm an addict and can't even hide it.

constantly catching myself with how tense i am. i am doing better than a few months ago but issues around my sleep are getting to me still. constantly catching myself with my jaw clenched and everyday is a fight to stay above water. every week is basically just a "just need to make it to my next therapy appointment" game

but i'm not giving up

if it wasn’t for my little brother i’d be long gone

we need a cure FAST! I cant live the rest of my life with ths s***!

It’s horrible. Have you tried therapy?

Yes and its helped but

Just realized my therapist sounds like Larry David lmao

I just want to do something right for once 🫠

Hope everybody is being kind and forgiving towards themselves.

This is always a tough time in the year for me. It’s dark and cold outside and with the holidays and changing of the year coming up, allot of “too do” stuff comes up, and it can be really overwhelming, draining and break you down.

So be forgiving, compassionate and loving towards yourself and the loved ones around you(I say this to get it thru to myself as well)