REAL

I have Pure "O" OCD

You take any medication for it?

I forgot to take my meds today and only realized it this evening. Explains my s*** mood today. But meds + weightlifting got me back in the zone

@Butters1017 I determined why I been cranky and weird today

I mean I'm generally kinda weird but this was a lot even for me

Take your meds kings

therapy is fire gang >>>

Therapy saved my life tbh. I'd be in a really really bad place without it. The anti-therapy s*** you see on here sometimes is just stupid

just niggas posturing. gotta realize a lotta s*** niggas be getting off on here is just cap.

mfw you realize ktt2 a pretty good place to get your angry/rage s*** off on dumb niggas so you don't gotta take it out on the people you love IRL

Part of why I joined on the low lmfao

Same for lifting. I lift mostly for the mental health benefits at this point

writing poetry kinda helps. feels better than journaling because you're not really under the constraint of writing something that's narratively coherent. was a nice change of pace today.

i think this some garbage but i wanna share it

I don’t think my dad is a bad guy
I don’t think that me being able to articulate my feelings with words makes me sensitive
I don’t think that being sensitive is a bad thing
I don’t think that being sensitive is a good thing
I think
That it’s just a thing
I don’t think that everything is black and white
I don’t think that everything in between is gray
Or shades of gray
I think
That there’s red, orange, green and blue in between
Even if that’s not how the rainbow works
I think
That you can say you tried
That you can say you did all you can
That you did the best you know how
But
I think
That at a certain point
That notion fades
And you realize
That you could have been better
Because you knew where those poisonous seeds were planted
And you refused to dig them out of the soil
I think
A lot

It's been a while since I've posted. Finally done with uni and teaching at the moment. I've been feeling okay honestly, haven't really been down that much. Seeing someone tonight which is good for me. Hopefully this is a sign that my life is finally progressing to where I wanna be..

guess who sighs his lullabies through nights that never end

Going back to my old ways . Get it right .. but nothings changed year in year out who can live like that.

tired of not bring the best version of myself

Damn dude forgetting meds sucks so much. I'm unfortunately addicted to gabapentin from dumbass doctors over prescribing me waaaaay over the reccomended limit and I've been cutting down but still if I miss one dose my mood is ruined. I feel you

What the hell, i was coming in and out of my sleep and i hallucinated a spider climbing down the wall. When i crushed it, it still had moving legs so I crushed it again but the legs wouldn’t stop moving. Then i used my phones flash to look at it and there was nothing there.
think i need to tell my psych to get me off my meds. kinda spooked rn cause i have family history of schizophrenia

Spiraling again ya boy sitting outside of the casino at ten am

@aLIEN how has your day been b?

@simulacrum for me i understand that it ain't no miracle cure, but the difference in my overall mood on days when i'm training compared to when i'm not is pretty substantial if i'm keeping it a buck.

Yep

I went hard as f*** last night lol. Felt great, all my anxiety went away

Happy to hear b

I ain't been in like 2 weeks, but I guess i'm in my running bag more these days

I need to do more cardio. I've always been more of a lifter

i feel tired but i cant sleep and i even took my sleeping pill

Yeeeeee

Alright

Alls my life I has to fight, nigga
Alls my life I
Hard times like, yah!
Bad trips like, yah!
Nazareth, I'm f***ed up
Homie, you f***ed up
But if God got us then we gon' be alright
Nigga, we gon' be alright
Nigga, we gon' be alright
We gon' be alright
Do you hear me, do you feel me? We gon' be alright
Nigga, we gon' be alright
Huh? We gon' be alright
Nigga, we gon' be alright
Do you hear me, do you feel me? We gon' be alright