Idk man. Swaygan is on all my socials so i cant be saying all that ykno

My lows get more depressing as I age. I’m in a bad spot but I’ve been complacent with it, which isn’t good. Waiting around for my next Valium refill to get jump started again. Also not great.

I feel like time is definitely running out and I need to actually stay the course, sacrifice my mental health if I ever want to leave this spot I keep finding myself in.

#rant over !

Im not allowed to get anything that would help me cuz i take adderall. Doc says no downers while taking uppers, so panic attacks forever it is

Ur gonna be ok promise

Hey santi

How ya doing slime

Not good wbu

Why are you having panic attacks ?

Had a panic attack today which induced depersonalization

^^^^

S*** will be okay in the long run hopefully. I can claw my way out but I gotta have better self control, a healthier routine to keep from falling into lows (at least lessen the amount/severity of them)

What was going on today ?

I have terrible body dysmorphia

I’ll explain soon

My discord is @egyptianswordsman if anyone wants to talk and needs help with their mental health. I’m going to be banned soon

I feel very lonely

Omg you are living the same life as me down to the last detail (except it's my real dad) Stay strong it's hard but there's light at the end

some days it feels like it will never get better

there is no ysl that they could sell
to get my heart out of this hell
and my mind out of this jail

had the worst night of my life

gave up venting bc it wasnt helping

I'm not okay

life has not been good lately im trying so hard to hold on and be optimistic but im not seeing a light at the end of this tunnel