Sometimes I question if love is worth it

I can put my hair in a bun now.
I’m Eren Jaeger.
Don’t blink
HoW MaNY PeoPLe ARe GRaTeFuL THeY aiNT TuRN ouT To Be TRueLY F***eD uP
LiKe NoT SCuMBaGS FR
NoT THe TiTLe i FiND MYSeLF GLoRiFYiNG SoMeTiMeS BuT THe KiND SoCieTY HaTeS FR
THaNK WHoeVeR RaiSeD You RiGHT iF You TRuLY NoT EViL aND iM aSSuMiNG NooNe HeRe i HaVe aDDeD aRe THe eViL TYPeS i HaVe FaiTH iN THaT aTLeaST
i Do Be Too HaRD oN MYSeLF SoMeTiMeS i’LL aDMiT BuT DeMoNS ReaLLY WaNT To WiN aND PLaY HaRD To Die iN THe HoPeS iT HaPPeNS To Me
You CouLD’Ve eNDeD uP LiKe THe PeTeR SCuLLY TYPe BuT You SPeND aLL DaY S***PoSTiNG oN KTT aND i THiNK THaTS a GooD TRaDe
HoW MaNY PeoPLe ARe GRaTeFuL THeY aiNT TuRN ouT To Be TRueLY F***eD uP
LiKe NoT SCuMBaGS FR
NoT THe TiTLe i FiND MYSeLF GLoRiFYiNG SoMeTiMeS BuT THe KiND SoCieTY HaTeS FR
THaNK WHoeVeR RaiSeD You RiGHT iF You TRuLY NoT EViL aND iM aSSuMiNG NooNe HeRe i HaVe aDDeD aRe THe eViL TYPeS i HaVe FaiTH iN THaT aTLeaST
i Do Be Too HaRD oN MYSeLF SoMeTiMeS i’LL aDMiT BuT DeMoNS ReaLLY WaNT To WiN aND PLaY HaRD To Die iN THe HoPeS iT HaPPeNS To Me
I have a terminal disease from tryna read that s***
F*** arguing I'd rather be by my f***in' self 
Till about 2AM then I call back and I hang up and I start to blame myself
betty white bout to be 99 years old, immortal mf
i went on one of my spiels saying id rather be rich and look broke rather than the other way around
I forgot she just went in to debt to cop a 2021 car
Pops said it can sometimes seem like i be talking about people to their face when im really just expressing my thoughts on things. i gotta find a way to express myself without seeming like im lowkey judging them sometimes lol
2019, i was partying very hard. socializing, going to kickbacks, clubbing, everything involved. my city was shaking now i'm just socially isolated and lost. don't even talk to people anymore it's not the same without like ''yoo Lets go to X club this Friday'' I don't really like socializing with people at houses. It bothers my paranoia and anxiety. I am never relaxed, well from where I live atleast you gotta be like that way.
If this pandemic carrys out to 2022 idk if i can handle this isolation like what the f*** im so f***ing lonely and just cant win