i keep forgetting to do my assignments lmfao. I'm bout to have a D in the class. Oh well

Ur gunna regret it

tired

Im slowly starting to learn how to control my emotions which feels nice

I get upset of course but I devalue whatever it is that makes me feel that way and focus on whatever I need to better or leave the situation

Actually I dont know if that is healthy either because I'll shrug s*** off as irrelevant if it causes me hurt and pain... idk

Long time no see. How all of you been?

I almost feel like the last four years didn't happen.

I think I'm reverting to my natural mindset I had when I was younger.

University environment made me a people pleaser in some ways.

Think it's better I dedicate less energy to socializing, realized it's a skill I have but I don't need it as much as I thought i did. Self education is better time spent.

This isolation but responsibility I still have during it made realize, others cloud my thoughts too much because I let them. I need space to think about things alone more often like in childhood.

It wouldnt surprise me if one of these days i just beat tf out of this dirty ass f*** nigga..

I honestly hate dirty ass people man its one thing if u got ur own room in a mess bc thats ur own space but ill be damned u piece of s*** ur sharing the bathroom w other people how tf u leaving the bathroom like this

Soooo cant wait till i get my own spot im so sick of this s***

My heart, waking, sang its desires.
(Spider of nothingness,
spin your mystery.)

my idol was already eminent while my eminence was merely imminent.

I am really just a big stupid child

Running to everybody trying to make them smile but just end up being a special needs ass f***ing idiot just being rejected, not liked and ridiculed.

I dont feel like a man I dont feel like I matter and I dont feel loved all while I am putting all the effort I have into receiving just a little bit of that

2:05PM

Strongly considering getting a motorcycle in a couple years. I want a small one for city riding. Dont need a sport bike or cruiser. Ain't gone take it on the interstate

I missed my therapy session...

I thought its on Wednesday, it was on Monday....

I missed it

I just

I mean

If that isnt a sign... I dont think I am supposed to be, I think Im doing it tomorrow

I was looking forward to it

this bald remix hitting

My first time getting in trouble at work is over an old white lady complaining that I didn’t open the door for her lmaooo I come in this b**** high, smelling like weed, FaceTiming and playing the switch but I get bumped off for not opening the door for a white lady 😂