It's crazy my life has started to look optimistic since i got the hope of this *** coming up. Be crazy if it gets yanked from me

I feel absolutely terrible whenever i think about my youth. I feel so s***ty everytime i think about a lot of memories. If i was to explain this to my family i think they'd tell me to get over it and stop acting like i had it so bad.

Now the thing is I know this is invalidating obviously but what if there's some truth to this? What if I'm just feeling too sorry for myself and I'm overexaggerating things in my head? I wish i could go back in time and relive some memories so i could properly process them.

I think my default mentality in my youth was to just take things as face value and accept them. I never challenged anything or stopd up for myself in most situations. I suffered a lot in silence and never really understood why i felt the way i felt i think i just was programmed to take it to the chin and keep moving because nobody cares.

But at the same time the few memories i do remember clearly i look back at them with the clarity i have now at my age and im like "wow that really happened and i didn't think anything of it"

Like understanding I have been gaslit my entire life and manipulated into ignoring my own emotions and needs and thinking its normal to be deprived was a pivotal moment in my mental growth. I feel like i understand that I need to listen to what myself thinks is best for myself instead of letting others interfere with that.

I wish i could interview certain figures from my preteen years but almost all of them are gone and the rest are my family that is ultra biased. I can't trust their opinions for the most part.

I just wanna know what's made me the way i am today

Her husband is a few years older than me and asked if I like J Cole, Eminem and Joyner Lucas….

Why is this the white guy default rap selection???

In the aftermath of that Indian thread with the HITLER guy in it, I’m not a self hating white exactly, it’s jus when I see racist behavior I like to dish it back to them. Point out their hypocrisy

🎵This is the way the world ends
This is the way the world ends 🎵

Royal rumble tonight

Man i saw after YEARS my greatest fumble of my life at the mall and i didnt even holla at her we even stared down eachother fml

Who’s attacking the website

Bad b****es round the world better grab you one

I have a free app of all these cable channels on my tv and as I had on some dumb show love after lockup while on my phone it reminded me how much I miss just bein able to turn on the tv and not have to “search” for anything to watch

You’re trying to solve a puzzle that can’t be solved. Spending too much time dwelling is dangerous for anyone.

From reading sounds like you kinda feel like you were a bystander not processing things in real time. I don’t think you’re giving yourself credit. You were there. Then and now.

Forgive yourself

I'm going to beat someone's ass in public this year.

I can already see it happening...

I need to solo travel

im going to open up a dental insurance company

bout to be rich

i will use my profits to help people with no insurance

Let the start of black history month commence

Think about it While You Sit on The Ground .

Winners Circle 🏆.

100% agree. Channel surfing/being limited to what you can watch was a good thing in the long run.

ouuhhuhaaaaa Ok O Time out .

I Ain't Got no Gun that Gets Old ..
But I Still Blow My Brains Out ...