1.Love Yourself Like Your Life Depends On It by Kamal Ravikant (this is literally only 40 pages long)

2. Art of Self Compassion by Kristen Neff

3.The Six Pillars of Self Esteem by Nathaniel Branden

I implore you to read the very first one, it’s so short & incredibly profound

From the few posts I’ve read; it sounds like you have a lot of negative self talk & that was a thing I struggled with a lot; “I ain’t s***” “I ain’t s***”

& you’ll see in that first book how that affects your overall wellbeing & how to change it.

The other two books are fantastic too, or at least for me they were. You can find them all online for free

I'll look into these thanks a lot

And as far as the negative self talk thing. I just feel like being overly optimistic and positive does more harm for me than good. It leads me to fall into a pit of delusion and when life seems to feel good i seem to get humbled and reminded how exactly negative the world is. Days like today where i was hopeful and optimistic i was crushed into a million pieces and felt like i was being sent back to my place of realism.

That's what i feel about it in reality. I dont think pessimism is negativity necessarily. In fact i think its the closest thing to be realistic i can be. Being that other way has only brought me disappointment and despair and heartbreak. Sometimes its best to stay down so you never have to fall.

That first book is going to have a counter argument for at least 80% of what you just typed

Well I'll give it a read and get back to you

Just search the book then end it with “pdf” on google or any search engine & you’ll find a digital copy. No pressure man just keep it in mind.

I thought this girl was checking me out on the trolley turns out my airpods fell out and I'm pretty sure she took them

No I'll try to read it. I've been looking for something like this honestly. I'll get back to you and I'll tell You what i think bro. Thanks

Feel like a worthless bag of s*** rn

I don't deserve s***

At this rate, I'd rather spend Christmas alone.

I am A failure

I've been clean for 8 months and 23 days but i really think tonight is the night that i relapse. I need something to get me out of my brain.

I am tired and trying to sleep but my brain keeps going 100 mph. I think this Is the same place i was before i started my addiction

About to make some bad choices because of these voices

This world is so F***ing cruel and People wonder why i have such a negative cold angry heart full of hatred

This is good. Working out releases serotonin or something

day off was needed

Its for a major company doing computer vision stuff

I need to chill tf out

I’m about to flip my lid because people like walking in th street instead of the almost never used sidewalk that costed tons of money to be put in everywhere

They cancelled my membership because i had a past due balance

Good s*** man. Hope you get it.

D**** made me sleepless

Maybe try some calisthenics or get some weights if possible

Running is looked at as a cardio but can also define your core and legs, as well as boosting serotonin or whatever. Can even get a runners high