doesn't sound like protecting your peace
sounds like you're protecting your issues

Could you clarify this please

Last 10 years have been one big cutscene

Can i just fast forwards to the part of life whete i start feeling purpose and happiness.

You're the director bro

you say you're protecting your peace by

• not being around people who trigger you - but why do they trigger you? what's inside of you that gets triggered? is it their fault for triggering you or your fault for reacting to those triggers?

• taking back control of my surroundings - you can never control every aspect of life even if you tried to, life will always hit us hard when we less expect it, control is an illusion we self-impose to make ourselves feel safer in an chaotic environment. Life hits you harder when you believe everything is under your control, it ends up turning you even more paranoid about these aspects you feel the need to control.

• not going to places I frequent a lot - avoiding places you used to go, places you enjoy (I assume, because that's why you frequent them), is not a form of 'protecting your peace', it's a way of avoiding something you don't want to face, you are not specific whether those places made you feel happy or not. In the latter case I can understand why you don't go anymore, but I feel like those are places you liked being around but not anymore because of some external factor that triggers something deeper inside you.

From what you've written all I can understand is that you're curling back into your warm, wet, and dark place (like a cave) which feels safe, but it will never let you grow out of those issues, because you choose to sleep with them, instead of exposing them to light.

every single time. every. single. time.
i always get assured on why i shouldnt open up to anyone everytime i do, i hate all of you people f*** you all

Thanks for the response

1. If You can't control people and I dont try to so why bother being around them if all they do is drag you down with no regard for whether or not they're harming you. These arent people that are worth being around to begin with and truth be told I shouldve avoided them a long time ago I just came to the realization that I dont NEED to around people. As for the triggers i wont change my reception of what people say because they choose to be an a******. Its my right to feel how I want. If people have a problem with it. Then f*** them.

2. Youre completely wrong. I am in control of my own life. I am not trying to over control everything but i am taking charge of what I can. And if i Can't then work around. There's a solution to almost everything. Better to find one than just give up control to others

3. They are places i dont really care much for anymore because those people are around. Why go somewhere filled with people who have no regard for you and only wish to feed their own ego. Again you can't control people but you can control going to them

4. There is no cave because there are no issues to grow out of. The problem is with other people not with me. I am not running away from anything that will help me

Ive been off my art s***. But i feel fine. Didnt know i could just abandon that side of myself without issue

Egyptian esoteric art an dark trap beats

lust will have you up at night like Nosferatu

Twisted Metal has become one of my new favorite series

Doritos have become too f***ing expensive man s*** is ridiculous

niggas b tryna press me thinkin im soft asl but im rly bout this otf s***

This nigga Oberyn death still pmo bruh

just

Also you live in korea or something you would never understand a person like me

This f***in Mike guy only calls when I'm f***in sleep.

Better not be bad news

I go to sleep for 4 hours and everyone and their mom hits me up

Hitting that good ass Taco Tuesday tomorrow

memphis fella everywhere i go

in the building, niggas building

one of raekwon’s greatest lines

Meeting with my bank in a few minutes
Not up for it