same and I don't care to be honest

I didn't had a happy childhood and now I want to have a happy rest of my life, with or without a family

currently making enlightenment music
s*** makes me feel like I'm in a cave surrounded by candles

I hate when people point their feet towards me in enclosed spaces

Not having a wife and kids >

More time, money, energy, and freedom to live how I want.

Also f*** getting raped in divorce court and with child support.

I think this recent school shooter, the black kid with the " cel" manifesto is a sad story. I don't have much sympathy for him, but I man that redpill/manosphere s*** is really f***ing with the minds of young men. It needs to be taken more serious. I fear having a daughter, and her having to deal with men who are growing up eating this s*** up.

Playing video games to get through a long fast might be the move.

Crazy how 20k+ people still playing left 4 dead 2 in 2025.

I find it so interesting and funny
I be talking with hella older ppl and sometimes it turns out they into spirituality real heavy
And they tell me;
"It's so great to see someone like u, am a very spiritual person and to c someone as happy and positive as u, ur an example and should be an example too many, if everyone was like u, depression wouldn't exist, ur so enlightened"

Like am not all that into spirituality but it's so funny to hear ppl who are really studying it/into it, say they try to reach ur level, while I feel like I never had to study it, it's more so undergoing life and eventually finally settling into ur true self

It's like, there is no trick imo
I've known ppl paying 1000s for such courses and s***

I feel like, it's life that eventually leads and pushes u there
U either surrender to the suffer from within and external
Or u decide to let loose and completely expose yourself as u are
And since u have experienced the worst pain it's like "what else could at this point hurt me even more? Am barely alive as is now"

And u notice that too, ppl just haven't been exposed to much hurt yet
Different difficult situations
Or were not able to recover from it

They're not there yet. They haven't lost or suffered enough. Come face to face with inner pain.

goated game

2000s was the last goat era for gaming.

They don't make em like they used to.

Boi sings with helium

damn this seasonal depression is kicking my ass this time around

Yesterday was my lil cousins birthday

I got home from work ate 2 edibles and some pills, slept for 12 hours woke up at 4am missed everything

D**** suck fr

you better make it up to him bro

Yea i was gonna install fl studio for him, tryna see if i can go over there later today

I started working with this rapper he has a lil potential but he lowkey ass an idk how to tell him

If he had better equipment and a reasonable flow he woukd be fire as f***. I dont wanna ghost anyone cus that s*** lame

I jus got a placement but no credit

Gahdamn this s*** hard 2

This like the opposite of b4

B4 id listen to every mixtape and be disappointed at no placements

Now i listen to 1 tape an suddenly im there and now im disappointed for different reasons

Ts ill af lmao im trippin

Wake up every morning knowing it’s me that’s gon change everything

Not Gervonta but I can promise I’m #TheOne

Get on that vitamin D my g. I still feel it, but that in particular has been a game changer (for me)

Lol we be going to shows so idk feel like that sorta energy would f*** things up. Also not rly attracted to her