Why do I taste fireball in my coffee?

the juxtaposition of the static and the dynamic is the essense of god and reality

we are living in a dichotomy, a contradiction. this is where the concept of maya comes in, we are confused by god himself, who seeks to understand his own existence

this is what i do

i get obliterated high and try to figure out the nature of our reality

reality is a traveling wavefront, behind the wave is the static past, ahead is the dynamic future, and every instant is some sort of mix of the two

we know this is not the ultimate reality because we are in a discretized world, the continuous does not and cannot exist, because it is infinite, and we live in a finite world. this world is a degenerate approximation of perfection, a sort of mid point in the process of creation

swapped back to Linux (Lubuntu) as my primary operating system and I just accidentally made my system s*** significantly faster after troubleshooting display issues on the login screen.

best example of spaghetti code ive seen in some time

the word of the day is clandestine

this world holds many secrets. those who control it have interesting plans. id be wary of assuming you have any inherent value, your goals, your dreams, they are nothing in the face of reality. its more like watching a movie then actually doing something, so sit back and enjoy the show.

s/o @lil_ufo

a while back i said the truth is mundane, depressing even

what i meant is, this is obvious btw, but in the course of infinity, nothing we do matters, like at all, its nothing, we will be shortly judged, but it wont last forever, and it will cleanse us of our ignorance, and when we are clean we will be one with the true god, but in timescales terms this life, our sins, our desires, theyre so miniscule, its almost not even worth considering, although we must do something, and this is the depressing part, we have to come up with some contrived reason to live when in reality nothing we do matters

the interesting part is when you realize consciousness is the core aspect of everything. learning about all the types of consciousnesses and their ideas, the worlds they create, the infinite love, its true that to exist is to be loved, because god is love, he loves all of his creations, he even lets us do what we want despite it hurting us, because he knows we have to learn, its all from a place of love

if you want to make it a battle of good and evil, those who believe in god are good,and those who dont are evil, its that simple, because love is good, god is love, and those who believe in love, or god, are loving, and those who dont, are selfish

all is one, we all deserve the respect we wish for, the golden rule stands tall, jesus is king

another thing that fascinates me, if someone of middling intellect like me becomes so wise just by taking a substance, why havent we harnessed these substances yet? why do we demonize something so obviously beneficial?

I’ma tip regardless but u cant tell me “we usually do $10 minimum” but it says that nowhere on ya menu dawg

I really really can't stand white women. I hate them

I took 300mg dxm and ive been listening to 80s rnb for the last 2 hours this is my favorite kind of day

Relationships in general are a headache

about life, im a musician, but tbh, i dont understand music on a level to make truly insane s***, im also physically disabled so i cant play most instruments, so i tend to be very careful about devoting time and energy into music

i am a phd student, i am investigating things of universal importance, its extremely interesting, i think this is my true pursuit, as much as i love art i feel like my life is headed towards something more concrete, like developing some software or thing that actually benefits people in an amazing way

anyways, im blessed to have options, and i will stop posting itt so much, just needed to document my high thoughts

I'm scared of them too comrade

i envision an economy where income is based on company income, and unions negotiate which fraction of the income goes to which type of employee. and there is no hourly wage, just a guarenteed fixed income

Scared? No. Despise? Absolutely

me n @Cody got a double date with rosalía and rosé at a fancy restaurant tonight no cap

always always always

imma leave with both when you go to the bathroom

its wild to think about these kid musicians who go up and have the world in their hands, like its no wonder they all get caught up, its wrong, kids shouldnt have this much power

im in the backseat with both of them as i type this

left yo ass with the bill i see yo dumb ass thru the window lookin around confused

Ngl i b thinking eventually i need to get off ktt just because it will eventually die, but social media f***ing sucks and idk what else to do with my phone