yeah i should come up with a better idiom

like sowing all my seeds in one bed

dw i wont go near you princess

Been feeling like I don't belong in this world

I feel like I'm cursed or something

idk how long I can take this

I'm really trying but stuff are just not working out for me

Understandable bro. Only CD that’s been in my car for the past 4 years, it’s a daily ritual for me at this point

Miles Davis is absolutely crushing my soul this fine Thursday afternoon.

I need to start a new collection of CDs tbh, I miss the ones I had

posting in relationship thread legit just speaking into the void. bringing all my related thoughts here now

i really dislike hearing about the past of those that i attempt to be in relationship with. you can let me know of why you are single/what went wrong in your last relationship. but beyond that it really hurts my soul to hear s***. and idk if this is a me problem or this is normal. but yea it really bothers me. even worse, idk if it's because of the idea that "i dont wanna see her with anyone else" or if its because the person I think she once was is not the person i want to talk to.

theres something with these Playboi Cartier songs man

like where i live, niggas not even onto Carti like that,except for maybe the tiktok songs

but damn everytime a nigga go outside to sing and am f***ing singing a Carti song
folks and specially b****es go wild

like bruh first time dis chick started going on film and obv asked my contacts, i was like hell how a Carti song fixin girls for me now

and for example today, this group older men and women all suited and s***, started dancing with me in the center of the big city

and just a few steps later this big group of girls just went literally bezerk

like they was screaming and going for wild for me
that first girl saw me and she just wanted to dance or come to me, but she had a boyfriend
and she was looking so MAD at her own boy

like breh why did u have to be here? Why am i cuffed up?
like it was so funny, they was getting it so hard but she couldnt
like all her girls was lookin starstruck af and screaming everytime i hit dat baby voice on Sky

like i just had that shoppin street under full control and attention like usually s*** happen with s*** everybody knows, but carti

"I gotta know who u f***ed in this room
cant trust no b****, cant trust these niggas"

"i know she suck d***, i kno she not s***"

like i was rappin this to them girls, it even sound funny when i write it up now and they was just going wild for it all

not gonna lie this street busking s*** very funny
and all dat love u getting

like when u at that peak and the entire street is just jamming along with u, not giving af and just dancing
its beautiful, like all dat positivity

like am not gonna cap, mfers always looking like damn who singing/rappin so well?
and they usually expect sum typical white boi or something

but when they see this jiggy nigga all dripped out, dem eyes cant stop looking, that smile hah
"ow u mfer, u know huh dont u "

and its like all ages and genders, handicapped ppl etc.. all just jamming along, and like for my country im a rarity and someone doing it like is much more of a rarity

like tourists always stop and applaud me or smth

like fr cant wait to be on stage again

and the best thing is, its so f***ing natural, like this the thing i been good at since a kid and what i wanted to do
entertain folks, make em happy

and when i started dis busking thing, it was because i loved to sing/rap and obviously by then i was signed too and mfers was like;
yo bro, u got like the best voice in this country, specially hip hop"
and i obv know my singing voice when i rec, so i was like why nah
aint none gonna say s*** if u doing it well

but bruh this interaction, is like beyond what i imagined or couldve wished for
like fr folks, when u wanna do something, do it, u never know

like people taking pics with me, people dancing, singing, asking for pics, them tellin u how much u impact they day in a positive way

like am not gonna usually boys/guys be hating, but dem white folks over here not used to and scared of a pretty jiggy nigga that is talented and funny
and dis country is racist, so i c the looks on they faces
but i also c they wifeys enjoying it

but yeah its greatest feeling on earth
with like THE toughest crowd in the world;
the people

none came to c u or intended to c a random dude singing and shaking it on the streets
this all ages
idk who watchin or hearing me
or who could be there

but u just do and u c the people just following along

like its dope af
knowing u might impact or influence ppl, like in ma hometown def lmao

blame it on the night

don't blame it on me

Dry streak for entirety of 2022 and now 11x in 2023. When it rains it pours

Go to sleep

No way we’re 20 days into January