nah that’s facts

I’m Me. X3

I got matched with a PAWG on Tinder

Finding a cool rock as a kid was the goatest s*** I swear

Its never about the Rock

Just had the strangest experience bros

Guy asks me for the time so I take out my phone and tell him

He says thanks and I swear he winks

Right now I check the time again and although 1:15 has passed in reality on my phone it’s only gone 0:15 up. Probably just my phone f***ing up but still so weird

I might finally be losing it bros

its never worth it

Lmao I decided imma tough this s*** out. Can't be a quitter out here lol

Aliens

Had a crazy vision last night, felt like my spirit left for a second

twitter.com/kneferhetep/status/1494069266588606464?s=21

I’m always surprised how hard this theme is every time I revisit it

dam all the sudden these niggas wanna call my name on the streets and act all happy and proud like they "know me"

people really looking and talkin to u diff when u doin something right

cant even hold a convo with u longer than 2min cause they too ashamed

feels bad dont it
bullying those who are diff
specially when i never even wanted to exclude yall in the first place
stay in yall tory lanes smh, shouldnt have shot urself in the foot

tbh im very f***ing happy with ma diagnosis

when i reached 18 and noticed s*** was up/different, nobody wanted to believe me
it was all a hoax/lie, basically downplaying my experiences

"nah man stfu u not special, u think u got a visual mind? u not even creative"..

"nah bro everyone sees music, u REALLY not that special as u think"

"cant sing for s***, u can barely even talk at a normal pace, stfu"(*my teachers also used to say this )
"nah bruh ur just weird af, a black dude into writing/poetry, u just finna be a homeless guy with a pen huh?"

"nah thats not a good idea/never finna happen"(moments/time later people will either do what i had recommended or someone else would steal my recom, but obv never got credited)

now all this doubt they slap into u
im happy, this diagnosis confirmed my strenghts

i actually am a very visual thinker and not everyone is able to visualize stories/sounds the way we do
my ways of thinking/finding solutions wasnt dumb/stupid, just didnt make sense to them at the time but as time grew, LPFJR always proved to be right...

People would call u a weirdo that cant even talk but need you as the first person to uplift em with ur high energy and rapid fire jokes... Yet none in the room would say u entertaining.. And apparantly since a young boy my family been saying i was destined to become a comedian/entertainer

dont let people minimize ur self experiences
people will hate on what they dont understand/own

After my diagnosis i learned people would put me down all the time but still use me for those quirks, until they realized they would never be able to do this(u know i literally had people irl copying me, asking me how to talk to a girl, make jokes etc....)

and thats what i mean, our brains is our powertool

i been known for a fact none could be me or steal these ideas, cause they come from within, theyre unique to the individual
And i know for a fact, growing up there wasnt that many niggas out there like me

Kneading the bread, gotta put it in the oven. We got the seasoning n techniques, just have patience.

@momomuesli check pm

felt the weight of the world
sometimes u gotta put u first

People liked Kanyes music because all the evil he attributed to the world he attributed to himself first

We gave it a good go babe, I enjoyed our time together and I'll always hold onto the good and bad times. I'll never have anything but love for this girl

Bro in all ways Tyler is trying to be a thick thot. I hope he gets the d***ing he needs fr

do i have to write it on your bedroom wall

i think his diagnosis mightve "helped" with that..

alot of ppl pre diagnosis suffer heavy self esteem issues, being wired differently the entire time but not knowing whats up or the cause

Im not even a kanye stan, but take for example Runway(2nd part overrated imo) but the lyrics always resonated with me so hard specially the intimacy issues, which stem from being on the spectrum... But if u dont know this and neither does ur partner(or anyone else for that matter) it seems like u are the person lacking/misunderstanding cause common actions/sense doesnt come to u naturally...

So ur evidently being taught; u dont really know how to act normal, be a human, now do u...
Which causes major self esteem issues and awareness...

Now when u are diagnosed u finally realize, its not your fault, its just who u are, its your brains
But then evidently u start noticing how all those years, u were told u were crazy, weird,lazy,geeky etc... U werent at all actually crazy, its just that our communication style is different so people rather "ignore" it until they notice u really are onto something(and its here even people tend to take advantage from people on the spectrum, since we fail to read body language and facial cues properly...)

Like even before my diagnosis oddly enough i always related heavily to Kanye during interviews(same with Travis whos clearly on the spectrum too), the way he thought, he articulated, his body language, emotion flips,lack of eye contact etc..

U need to know, for people on the spectrum moods/emotions hit harder too, so when we happy were excited af
when were posed to be "sad" were depressed etc..
which agains, hinders alot of our communication and even scares people away...

Man I appreciate ur thoughts fr...

and like u said tbh
people always like people better when they blame themselves
"ow yeah thats kanye, we already knows hes an a****** but he always comes back with good music"

thats just saying i dont like this person at all and if it werent for his music, id never gaf about him

He hasnt been really scoring any major hits the last few years and always headlined in controversial ways;
no more music for the mainstream masses to back him= hes officially off the rockers

Ive seen alot of the same reports and i endured alot of the same, as soon as the people dont need u anymore or want u there, suddenly ur not the talented force of nature anymore, ur the weird slow seeming person nobody wanna talk with anymore....(yes gaslighting is a thing)

people can be mean and are like that sometimes
they are "normal" and obv notice the strange quirks from people on the spectrum.. They dont have high expectations, what should be easy to anyone, we fail to grasp
but then as soon the action begins and we propel, they are shocked
cause then what should be advanced/expert lvls of know-how, we do with ease as if its our 2nd nature...
thats where u get "envy" and gaslighting

i find it horrible to read all the comments directed towards Kanye, not taking his mental health into consideration, he doesnt do things by choice, its his how he thinks he should act, our natural instinct... He should just get his meds tho and lay low for awhile, like Travis did