How am i even gonna get this cert AND get a cyb job

I haven't been felt complete in life like ever man im literally like a hamster running in a wheel

Last year has been a huge lie wtf

Man like am i not built for this s*** i really wanna f***ing give up

Like at this point its just not meant for me bruh like f*** everything I'm just f***ing doing everything wrong

Lool i been tryna find a cyb job for years and this nigga just happens to stumble on it his first try like god really do have a different path for everyone

Like I'm a f***in bum at this point whats the f***in point I'm trying and not even progressing anywhere I've been f***in stagnant,,,look at me being a f***ing retárd

Cuz you're f***ing RETĄRDED

I get this familiar feeling that everyones moving along and I'm just stuck behind and once again here it comes in the worst way im stuck in a bottomless pit getting lapped by some f***ing kids and I'm not making any progress

Like do i even f***ing blame this on me not having any resources? Or is it just luck and fate or am i just f***ing ŘETARDED

Then i gotta wake up tomorrow and go to my bogus ass job

This what happens when i go to twhd i guess

Nah I'm crashing out again but idc i keep lying and hiding my job bc i don't do anything impressive and i lie about it and everyone is like unimpressed when they do find out im a f***ing idiot man i have no excuses by myself being a f***ing loser once again

Like what am i doing its October 2025 why am i still interviewing for help desk s***s i hate this customer service s***

Allah has not put any khair in this for me and I'm honestly not shocked or surprised man its all my fault

Why did it take this for me to wake up and realize this smh

One conversation might have changed my life but made me feel like s*** so badly

I'm frustrated asf talking to chatgpt rn bc i have nobody again

Hey life I tap out I'm giving up

I wish i could beat my own ass

I HAVE NO SUPPORT GROUP MY MOM IS WAITING FOR ME TO FAIL SO SHE CAN SAY I TOLD YOU SO

I DO NOT HAVE ANY REAL NIGGA FRIENDS EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM IS A FAKE ASS B****

THERE IS NOBODY ON EARTH THAT I TRUST IN MY LIFE

Yo its really just me by myself in this planet

You only have yourself Is what i get tatted