Hey guys I haven’t been as active lately because of life and some of yall might know that the last time I left the site, it was because @americana responded to me coming out by calling me slurs and bullying me

After that took place and I took a break and returned, I was vocal about my struggles with mental health and depression but gradually reengaged

Tonight after a couple drinks I dared to make some negative posts in the Ken Carson thread. In my signature style, it was being a bit hyperbolic about my hate for the artist musically, just talking s***

This led to Americana literally just telling me to kill myself

As negative as some might see my presence here, I’ve never attacked another user in that fashion, I have been on kanyetalk/kanyelive/kanye​tothe/ktt2 every iteration and we were always a community. Music debates aren’t supposed to lead to personal attacks to this extent, but it’s the norm now.

I understand that I’m not the most likeable person on here and I apologize for everyone I’ve annoyed. I never would’ve wanted to degrade any of you as people though and I don’t think I did

Hating on an artist or having strong or contrarian opinions was never grounds to call people slurs or tell them to kill themselves. And the worst part is everyone was just co-signing it so I guess at my age I’ve come to the end of the road here

I just don’t need to be told to kill myself over my music takes. Life is hard enough without being told to kill yourself.

You never know what people are going through. One love

the problem is when you troll so much people can't tell if a thread like this is sincere or just trying to make @americana feel bad

Nigga lol

Just say kill yourself back simple solution to that

Am I tripping @americana

Am I such a troll that me saying I don’t want to be called slurs and told to kill myself on a music forum seems like it should be questioned?

That might be easy for some. For someone whose mind is telling them those same two words constantly it’s really not that simple

Yall got it then

He’s escalating the bit

I was talking to the 2words account like last week So you just using multiple accounts at the same time @op

I got locked out of it like last week but besides the point

Won't be missed.

This isn’t a bit. I mean this sincerely. I’ve never had this type of problem before and as someone who struggles with mental health issues, ktt was always a safe and fun space for me to be since 2007 during Graduation rollout. I’ve always been annoying and weird and had a tendency to be hyperbolic. I was never called a slur or told to kill myself. Back then, the site being owned by S kind of signified that this was a safe place for everyone. We got along even when we disagreed. Being told to kill myself, and even worse, having multiple users then cosign it or question why I have the right to be offended by it because of who I am, is really not a good thing to experience when you’re in the midst of crisis. Really, no one should have to deal with that. But I guess I deserve it

Bruh has 3 posts crying about it after and Americana just posting about the album in that thread

Dear Diary, someone on the internet was mean to me today

I’m glad you find it funny

bout f***in time man

you will not be missed but see you back soon anyway

This is a music forum. It was never ok to tell people to kill themselves on a music forum

I guess it says a lot about me that it’s garnering this much support. I’m sorry but I would never tell any of you to kill yourself

So you think I should kill myself too?

I genuinely hope you’re good

But I just can’t imagine americana of all people has you set off like this like

This like the troll who cried wolf

And I can’t imagine you haven’t seen worse on this site

But I hope you’re good. You have value.

I done had 2words muted so long it improved my mental health

Part of why it is triggering for me is because like I said, he has a history of going at me in a personal way

To look at my quotes after an already crazy past of him hitting me with slurs and see that he’s proudly telling me to kill my self because I said Ken Carson sucks after a night drinking hurts. I don’t believe anyone should ever tell anyone to kill themselves. I thought we as a society, at least in spaces like these, agreed that that s*** is unacceptable. But for some reason Americana feels like he’s above that and can attack people however he wants.

I appreciate the positive post though thank you

I haven’t really seen worse tho. I’ve seen people permad for much less. I don’t see people telling people to kill themself on this site, especially just randomly in a music discussion

Who is bro