Feel like I've been on one for almost a decade man

Always so much to learn and so many ways to improve

I still have a lot more growing to do, kinda foot in the door kinda thing
I just think I know who I am more then I ever have but not fully

everyone can ignore this

I'm the youngest of 4 brothers by a wide margin so ever since I got my act together around like 20-22 it's been interesting to get to know them in a different way lmao. 28 now and like a month ago I had dinner with two of em at my parents house while our parents were on vacation. One closest to me in age just got divorced after 10+ years being together. Oldest one got divorced long time ago I don't know a whole lot about it but then also just married for the second time like last year. Anyway we were all chatting and my oldest bro kept telling me off about how I can't be a Doomer cuz it's gonna ruin my life and he like goes on forever about it like he wouldn't drop the subject so I finally blurted out something to the effect of...ahem..

"you are an entirely different generation of person than me (hes 15 years older) and you have an insane ability to lie to yourself and say things are fine so that you can believe you will live a full happy life and die in old age and you lecturing me over this bullshit. It's a known but suppressed fact that we gonna see unbelievably terrible historic events at a more rapid pace until finally it all falls down and it spite of this I spend my days working at a homeless shelter helping others to try and cope with this knowledge. I've done dozens of psychedelic journeys all focused around healing myself and helping REDUCE my innate and enhanced (by psychedelics lol) empathy for all things because at a certain point it was causing me so much pain that I thought it would be best if I ended my existence. Have you worked with your therapist who experienced many ayahuasca trips in Peru to create a guide for using psychedelics in a spiritually healing manner and then spent years trying to create your own meaning in this absurd and twisted purgatory? No? Well maybe you should shut up about how me being a Doomer is what's gonna ruin my life because I've managed to do my best dandelion impression and grow like a mfer through a tiny crack in a desolate wasteland of a sidewalk. I've gone from suicidal to thriving. I've had a smile on my face this entire time why do you think that is? I'm sitting here with ten f\*\*\*ing fractures, no fault of my own, and I am absolutely loving my life more than I ever have. So can you just shut up about me being a Doomer?"

Also I think the younger one came out as "maybe bi" and I just said "imagine having never sucked cock before lol" so yeah

family is weird

Sober June gang

Is plant

stay planted

The French have a song they like to sing, “Qu’est-ce qu’on attend pour être heureux?” (What are you waiting for in order to be happy?) You can be happy right here and right now.

Is Plant

Everyone but @Plants can ignore this

: maury : i might read that post

Go for it.

damn

i went off a bit lol

u were fed up lmao

also that brother just messaged me he's gonna be in the city on sunday and wanna hang out and im just like

the one who was talking about doomer or the one that mite be bi

the older one giving me crap abt bein a doomer lol

well if he still wanna hang out w u then it might be alright hopefully yall can patch that bs up

u never know when ya fam need u and don't express it

ye it'll be fine we lowkey patched things up same day he sort of apologized for giving me such a hard time lol

hes just a bit boring

how often do you listen to nobody by mitski @plants

Haven't gone outta my way for awhile but it's in my Spotify liked so 1 in like 600 chance on shuffle

Great song

Sky high