I never learned to socialize well i feel like I'm overstepping boundaries over the slightest thing. But even then like i don't really relate to anyone i work with so I wouldn't even want to become good friends with them. People tell me I'm likeable and I put them at ease but like, yeah never had many friends. Just one ride or die which is so nice, known him for almost 20 years now.

In big groups (good old days eh) I'd usually be content to just observe because again i don't really relate to the s*** people tend to talk about. And not on some "small talk is for losers" i just, idk, never have the urge to contribute.

So it's basically all of my own doing at the end of the day and it's hard to come to terms with that in a way that doesn't end with me berating my self.

Deeply dissatisfied with how blessed of a life i have. Loser s***

Oh I'm shy about my practice not my problems.

Not sure what you mean by that tbh

I can save you some time, enjoy who and what you already have.

A piece of burned meat
wears my clothes, speaks
in my voice, dispatches obligations
haltingly, or not at all.
It is tired of trying
to be stouthearted, tired
beyond measure.

Feels good to have two really productive days after that s***ty work week

🌱 🪴

Achievement unlocked: cry in therapy because you imagined hugging your best friend.

Here's to growth. In every dimension.

little bit of fun and back to my despair
as usual

how are you??

hi @op

hope u doing alright

ye, doin okay
i mean, mixed bag vibes u know
staying grateful tho

lets gooo welcome back

@plants am I dumb or did the Societal Collapse thread get deleted?

Yes they first changed the thread title to
"apathy p*** and self fulfilling prophecies itt"

Shortly after deleted the thread and banned the user @plants (op for that thread)

AFAIK, No reason was ever given for this.

Wait so Plants is banned? Like perma?