so weird that im doing this rn, but ive been putting off meds and therapy for too long and i might as well use this forum (lol, this of all places) as a place to start.

its great to meet you all. glad there's a dedicated mental health community here. i've been struggling with depression all my life and it's been especially bad this year.

i really need help and keep telling myself i'll start with free, walk-in therapy and meds but i keep putting it off. i keep convincing myself that i should learn 2 conquer this s*** on my own, but i think i need to realize that getting help is OK and is a sign of strength, not weakness.

much <3 to all ya'll. we can do this if we do it together.

i need to get out of my state of mind. i need hope and motivation again.

i live such a sad life and this self isolation is ruining me

small steps, bro. I’m going through something similar. Go to an event, hang out with a friend.

Think back to when you had more motivation and try to rekindle those habits again.

And if you have no one to help you through this, know that I’m here. I’ll keep trying if you do homie <3

1 DAY @ A TIME

That sadness really hits after a nap

If I don’t text first, there’s silence
Done chasing

Trying not to self medicate myself as of recent. That s*** damaged me more than help. Gonna get medicated to Risperidone. That weed don't help at all.

jesus i've been anxious and nautious today

Niggas BIG depressed round this b****

Seeing a doctor soon!
Important step, y’all get the help you need !

i work on a project for like 30 minutes all well and good then i just go f*** around for hours on end. i know i got the capability to focus and work but i'm just choosing to be a lazy s***

my habits are becoming very poor

i think this new cymbalta med f***ing with my sleep

im waking up in the middle of the night like 2 - 3 times during sleep

fell asleep at 10 pm last night, woke up at 2 am and woke up again at 5 am and just stayed awake and waited it out until 6 when i got ready for school, never really had anything like this happen

should i just wait it out for like a month when i see my doc again because i don't think the med has really taken effect yet and ive only been taking it for a few days

i deal with procrastination as well, it sucks, knowing you can put in the effort but you just don't want to

I cant tell if im making progress or just faking it

Not the best thread to say this on, but good to see you on here yo

there is such a thing as 'fake it till u make it', but it only works as long as what you're aspiring to be is in line with your needs and wants emotionally
no point in forcing happiness, just feel how u feel but don't content urself w it

first tip off the top of my head like this:
change your vocabulary where u wouldve said smth bad or hyperbolic into 'i'm okay' 'i'll be fine' 'i can handle this'

Thats good advice, people have told me that before but for me sometimes its harder than not to stick to it. I think I might be a tad bit bipolar along with my depression

same thing here. it's an incredible effort to program yourself, but much easier to do is,
when u catch urself saying something unhelpful to urself or others u acknowledge it and move on
above all else it's important to be aware of the things you're thinking or feeling before u can take action

I have a good easy job where I make good money, a wife, a kid, a new puppy, a new house, new car...

Yet, I still find it hard to be happy....

Idk if this is the right place, but life has f***ed me up completely in the past year. 2018 was basically the best year of my life, went out all the time, had a lot of friends, focused on school and I was happy as f***. 2019 came and idk everything's f***ed up. I graduated school, moved across the country for basically my dream job. Well, worked there for a little over than a month and got fired for some petty s***. I was literally broke, living in a big city where I didn't know literally ANYBODY. Scrapped some cash and moved back to my hometown, been unemployed for the past 2.5 months now.

Nowadays I'm afraid to go outside. I only leave the house to cop some weed or go for a smoke sesh with my last 2 friends who are pretty much in the same situation. It just feels so dark as f***, living on welfare, wasting basically all my money for weed and all my time staying home. The only thing that I'm interested in and actually helps me is making music. Stray strong yall, everything will be better soon

aight i need to let this one out. i feel lonely af when im around people i know and are friends with, even with my bf i still feel lonely and i dont know why. i feel like these people in my life are only staying around because they feel bad for me or some stupid bs like that. even when my bf assures me he loves me and my friends continue to talk with me, i just cant shake that stupid thought. any ideas on what to do?

Why do you think that is? Do you feel something is missing?

“i feel like these people in my life are only staying around because they feel bad for me or some stupid bs like that.“

This is totally false. That’s just the negative self-talk in your mind. We all have it and it’s hella convincing. They’re in your life because they love you and you bring joy and warmth to their lives. You matter more than you may realize.

Yes, keep doing the things that keep you happy and keep repeating that mantra, “ everything will be better soon.”

BUT. Things don’t get better without effort. Make conscious decisions to make things better. There are so many great things down the road for you if you hold on and keep trying.

Naw, just my mind doesn't want me to feel happy.

I have moments of it. But everything in my life is like and Advil to a headache. It just makes the feeling go away for awhile

fr bro