I always feel unwanted

Hey fam
I had a thought
Sometimes it feels like ur whole life, you've been a certain way
(Such as bad social skills, anxious, or even bad w/girls, etc)
I realized I felt this way about certain aspects of my life, as if they've always been there and always will be. And my life will stay tangled by these setbacks.
But I realized maybe that's just because that's how I trained myself to feel, so I don't even let myself/life become greater.
Patterns are meant to be broken fam, the change can only come once you believe it.
Love you all, you got this

Once you realise all this s*** is just mental/conditioning it feels so empowering that you can change it all with a few steps in the right direction

Calling my therapist who I haven’t seen in months and starting ssri’s

I need to take action now

For myself and the people around me

Exactly bro.

My memory is getting a lot worse on Latuda. I can't remember if I was supposed to tell my psychiatrist if I start having memory problems

Sick and tired of being me

i f***ing hate people

some niggas need to get their s*** absolutely f***ing rocked

Had a bad episode yesterday due to the 2 year anniversary of my dad's passing. Wanted to conversate with the girl I've been seeing about it and she blew me off all day then subsequently blocked me later last night. Not only is that wracking my brain but opening up to someone only for them to be absolutely care less is completely devastating. There's a fine line between spite and discourse, and I'll be damned if it wasn't slammed onto my head for wanting a shoulder to lean on.

Loosing feeling
Loosing meaning
Loosing purpose

alone again

no more chasing people

im heading out 2019 at my lowest

This has deadass been the worst most traumatizing year of my life but I at least have been able to hold onto some will to live and openess to self improvement. Just gotta keep pushing

Stay away from doings d**** recreationally; that s*** can make depression 50x worse (like it did with me).

I dont think i am depressed i just dont trust a living soul, not even my parents. Anyone relate?

Always think people are talking s***

They probably are though because the evidence is there

I want to cut everyone off and one day get to a level they will never achieve.

Man f*** yall

I nned to find positive half-intelligent friends who actually want to do s*** with thier life and not drink every day

The f*** am i in

Who are also nice and respectful and dont talk about p**** 24/7