I’ve been having strange, vivid, intense dreams lately. Sleep quality has been bad even though I think I’m getting enough hours. I hope gym tonight will help me get the quality sleep I need.

same here 😥

ugh i have a problem with talking way too fast. Nobody ever understands me. I hate repeating myself so i just never want to talk. I hate talking to people because of how i fast i talk and how often i stutter

so i rather stay silent and never talk to anybody. It's hard working a retail job and having to constantly do customer service.

This is a dangerous hole you're falling into pal, it's important for people to maintain social interactions here and there. Your best bet is to just practice, I was in a similar situation a couple years ago where I didn't wanna talk to people because I never thought I had anything to say, but it's impossible to get better at things like conversations without actually doing it.

bro on god, like why is that even that important for them to do it anyways lol

I do these convesations everyday thats the thing, im there 40 hours a week. I struggle so much with slowing down my speech. I get frustrated because i feel so dumb having to practice this.

I feel you, mindfulness plays as big role in realizing how you're speaking and putting more thought into it. Practicing mindfulness, be it through meditation or whatever, helped me out a lot personally. I also kind of naturally stopped giving a s*** what others thought about me, I can't really speak on how I developed that kind of mindset cause it kind of just happened but it surely made me a lot calmer about talking to people

Retail is also a s***ty ass job, I'm sorry about that man. The kind of people you have to deal with working a job like that...

The way I’ve been living the past 3 years I might as well be a neet was a neet for 1 one those years too

This ain’t a way to live.

I want to run away

been a neet for two years now it's donkey d***

staring out the window, waiting for life to stop

remember telling myself new year's day 2018 that if i wasn't in a better place by new year's 2020 i'm killing myself

s*** ain't no better

i've noticed that sometimes in a group when someone mentions they're depressed it sort of becomes a competition to be the most depressed mfer in the spot.

"im depressed"
"nah man i'm more depressed"
"nah i'm suicidal everyday dog"
"my dog literally just died"

i mean, everyone is still depressed but in the moment that s*** is hilarious.

starting to think i'm too unwell to even work

Fighting through hell. I won’t give up.

We gone be alright.

ily

<3

been watching sports again and that fire is still there
diet and sleep pattern is still trash though
still in love with the idea of being in love and idk always creating and envisioning scenarios in my head idk how to stop i want love so bad

I take my parents for granted when I'm around them, but reality always hits when I'm not

Rinse and repeat daily

my appointment was 3 min ago and she didnt show up yet smh

evangelion almost made me cry bruh it felt like them niggas was attacking me personally