Dawg my psychologist gave me a mission to reach out to friends and s*** because she things I internalize everything

Half of me is like why that's like so unnecessary the other half is like a little scared I guess

Like I'm kinda learning that I've developed this antisocial thing as a personality trait and I feel like reaching out to people on some hi how you doing s*** is like against who I am and devaluing this sort of imaginary exclusivity I've cultivated for myself

Who I am and how I perceive things changes so much I imagine it would be very disorienting to those around me

Some ppl aren't comfortable with that and perhaps I've allowed myself to be silenced by ppl who disapprove of me

Had a nervous breakdown and I still haven't recovered fully (6 weeks later). Everyone says I look skinny and unwell.

I hate how I randomly have that one s***ty day every now and then
That one day where nothing works out and you really notice all your flaws

wish i was better with people

f***

My brain yesterday at a family barbecue:

hey

When will I feel better

This year has been a hell I can hardly process as being real. Everyday feels like a bad dream that I cant seem to wake up from

I don’t like myself right now and on the verge of having a breakdown/self harm but Gina. Try to distract myself

anytime you wanna talk to someone just hmu on discord i'm always on. I'm just happy to see you posting again and hope you get to 100% quick

yeah, i am, it’s been a rollercoaster so to speak. same to you.

imma garbage human being