May 22, 2020·1 reply
PsychodramaI'll check out Lune tomorrow morning with my coffee
it's crazy you brought up alcest...the voyages album and some stoner metal album I dont remember the name of right now are the only metal albums I recall enjoying.
Alcest is great. One of the first metal artists I got into. Without them I wouldn't have enjoyed metal as much as I do now
- May 22, 2020Cats
Alcest is great. One of the first metal artists I got into. Without them I wouldn't have enjoyed metal as much as I do now
I was just reading the wiki page and the whole ''fairy land'' concept of neige sounds like an awesome foundation to build your sound on.
s*** got me lowkey inspired
- May 22, 2020·1 reply
I cant have one good day without having one bad day afterwards
- May 22, 2020
honestly I just need to be high all the time
But I can't write reviews while high. Plus tolerance is a thing
Dilemma
loading 🧊May 22, 2020Psychodrama1. try reading one chapter of the Bible each day for 1 month even if you dont believe in It. see it as a self-improvement and encouragement Book. This helped me alot, not in the sense that my problems went away but my perspective changed. I'm just a guy on a forum. I'm not trying to convert you, I'm just sharing what's good for me.
2. Other than that find what form of entertainment you enjoy the most (books, movies, music etc) and then try to find a hobby that has something to do with that form of entertainment....for me it's writing and making beats. simple..yet very helpful outlet.
3. And this might sound corny but dont be afraid to love others...the opposite of love is not hate...it's fear...fear of rejection, fear of ridicule, fear of not living up to your expectations or the expectations others have set for you....all of that is poison to your well-being. Kill fear and give as much love as you can even if you take nothing back. at least your conscience will be good since you did your best. Most of the time our brains and fear sabotage our relationships...not our hearts
4. Last but not least...find your own path, God(or life) has a different path for everyone, not everyone is supposed to go the same way. Imagine what traffic would be like if we all headed the same way. I mean yeah we take similar routes, but our destination and reason for being there is different. Dont get discouraged when you fail at something someone else succeeds or when someone ''makes fun'' of your way of handling things.
I hope I could be of some help with this. I'm still in search of answers and happiness too so I just do my best for now.
ugh, i had a lot typed out but it just frustrated me. thank you tho, ill try to make some of these work. gunna pick up kobe's book instead tho. i think need to quit my job, focus on my health while getting online school in. that could be the best. also it's never been about not loving others, loving myself is the hardest part. it's hard for me to commit to things when i can't see myself if i can get my health right it should upgrade my attitude. i just lose weight so ridiculously fast it's hard to keep at it. also art used to be my outlet but it's hard getting creative like i was once.
ty bro
- May 23, 2020
that pit feeling in your chest when you see something you dont like. just anything
I hate that feeling
then it turns to nausea
- May 23, 2020
what did I do to deserve my life
- May 23, 2020
Nah man I really feel insulted now
- May 23, 2020
I see what this life is really about and that s*** just leaves me with a black hole in my chest
- May 23, 2020·1 reply
it's really hard to go on
really really hard to go on
- May 23, 2020Cats
it's really hard to go on
really really hard to go on
at least sober
- May 23, 2020
I should've expected after I got the s*** beat out of me by the police in my own home when I was like 14 s*** was never really supposed to get better for me
- May 23, 2020
jesus christ looking at page 195 for me is disturbing
lowest I think i've ever felt in my life. I legit couldn't feel anything but nausea
- May 23, 2020
Could not eating anything be contributing to nausea? I know that sounds counter-intuitive but i'm just wondering
- May 23, 2020
So many times I wanted to end
This impenetrable blackness that is life - May 23, 2020·edited
I'm just very dissonant when it comes to society. I can't function with people. Which is why a lot of times I try to pull away from them, though it doesn't work. Don't know how to. I'm not much special, but neither is anyone else. It bothers me
- May 23, 2020·1 reply
I'm here to tell you right now...
- May 23, 2020
deleted twitter
- May 23, 2020
Think I'm finally sad enough to be in the mental space where I don't give a s*** about people's personal thoughts. Used to be an uncontrollable burden
- May 23, 2020
wish I could just sleep longer
- May 23, 2020·2 replies
I want to kill myself
May 23, 2020·1 replyCatsI want to kill myself
