TLDR: Hope everyones good and safe, especially those who are out everyday for hours in essential jobs. Lockdown sucks.

The only good thing about this lockdown is Im sleeping a lot better, which has been a big help mentally but Im getting sick of looking at screens all day watching netflix and youtube, playing video games and browsing on my phone.

I never thought Id get sick of being able to do these things all day, but I am. I still feel blessed for being in a safe home during this time but damn, the rest of whats going on is depressing.

A burst of rage/self hate/ and anxiety just hit me

i don’t have an end goal for anything at all

i hate this s***

we been on the same frequency since ktt1 days hope you doing aite luv

Damn anxiety levels from school getting crazy on this final stretch

timing is always so garbage i have to blow off one friend group to hang with others and i seem so shady and i can't please both

am i reclusive are they persistent are we in quarantine why are we hanging

anxiety or sadness every time

these late nights never get any easier

I don’t like myself right now and even my girl can tell something is up but I lie and say everything is okay

Failed attempt of 100000x to stop hurtin myself

Wish I could find a friend who can calm me down when I'm boutta destroy my body
Gotta lay off benzos too

When can I finally get away

what about me

what about my happiness

getting my s*** together is my no1 goal rn

You have to be that friend. If you cant be good to yourself it's going to be hard to get anyone else to be good to you.

Idk if this is weird but iv been experience like a wave of happiness that last for 30 minutes or so i cant explain it but it feels like a high almost

sometimes you’re worst enemy is yourself

Me neither.. I have brief ideas of s*** I want.. but no desire to chase anything.. any advice?